aujourd'hui
hello there

::Thursday, October 13, 2005::08:35 p.m.::

I haven't written here in ages....

I just sort of wanted to start again. But not have anyone know. Make it a more private thing....except it really can't be private, because it is on the internet. do my comments still work?

ego sum?
::08:35 p.m.::


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OMFG I am the luckiest

::Tuesday, May 31, 2005::11:23 p.m.::

I officially have the best boyfriend in the world.

He wrote me a song XD

Je pense que...

ego sum?
::11:23 p.m.::


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Off to the xanga party

::Sunday, May 15, 2005::01:19 p.m.::

Hey kids, I'm not posting here anymore. For now, you can catch me at my xanga site: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Princessfake

ego sum?
::01:19 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
lovely philosophy

::Thursday, April 28, 2005::11:35 p.m.::

mk, i want to fix this site. Or just do anything with it.

OPENING NIGHT OF SEUSSICAL!

went as good as it good

hey! "Things could be worse!"
lovely philosophy

ego sum?
::11:35 p.m.::


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Dans le nouvelle économie à l'Africanne

::Sunday, April 10, 2005::11:12 a.m.::

Lt: Elsewhere Sarah McLaughlin

and just when you thought you were getting over them...
they have to write this amazing email and invite you to come back to France!

Oh Coralie wrote me the cutest email!! I've been meaning to write here and send her family a thank you card, but life has been soooooo hectic since of gotten back...mainly filled with sickness and bflats rehearsal. (Pompafric by Tryo just started playing...hahahaa I miss FRANCE)

Yea but god I've gotten so sick...this cold won't go away..i hope its allergies. And then I have this wonderul GIGANTIC stye in my eye which is so not lovely and hurts like the bitch it is.

ego sum?
::11:12 a.m.::


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Jetlagging like it's my job

::Sunday, April 3, 2005::09:24 p.m.::

Lt: Elle m'a Dit Cali

Je suis revenir!

I'm feeling 50/50. I'm happy to be home with my family and friends, but then I really miss the Milliat's aaaaand France in general. I seriously want to go again this summer, and they said they would let me stay with them! I think I shall spend my entire vacation (apart from Cape Cod of course...and possibly gov school) there, and be perfectly content. Aside from having to speak french the entire time.

Ah, I do have to say that it's nice to not struggle to have a conversation. Trying to speak french at 6 am in the morning is...special/atrocious.

I'm going to miss all my hazlenut products (among other things)

YES! PERFECT!

ego sum?
::09:24 p.m.::


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Musical Saturday

::Sunday, March 20, 2005::01:54 p.m.::

Lt:My Sweet Darling Seth Kallen and the Shamblers

Amaaaaaaaazing night last night. First, BFlats had their best performance ever this year at Friend Central's A Capellapalooza (??), and then we got to see GFS, Penn Six-5000, Pleather, Swarthmore's Mixed Company and the Pennyloafers perform too. I think I love every member of Penn Six-5000, Eva and I had to restrain ourselves during their set. So my mom bought their cd and I promised that I would come to their show at the World Café.

Theeeeeeen Hannah, Jack and I skipped over to Bryn Mawr to see Dallin and Seth Kallen at The Point. Great experience for my first time at the venu....I lurve the couches (even though I had an akward view of the bassist's butt....). Too bad everyone had to leave after Dallin though :( Seth was wonderrrrrful, even though I was struggling to stay awake. Oh! and I saw Henry there, nice because I haven't talked to him in a while. Haha the old man with the pony tale was hilarious.

OHO! and I went on a SHOPPING SPREEEEE in the city after art classes at Banana Republic and Urban Outfitters. = Extreme Happiness. Weird though, I saw this girl Carly who I went to Ballibay with! Turns out she's majoring in photography at U Arts...I remember her being an amazing ballet dancer though.
Yay so now I'm packing (ugh) for FRANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and having these tests and bio lab is hella annoying. I WANT OUT!

ego sum?
::01:54 p.m.::


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Ah, J'aime Momo

::Sunday, March 13, 2005::07:57 p.m.::

Voila, mon nouveau mari:

Pierre Boulanger

Ah, Je t'aime Momo et cet film (Monsieur Ibrahim).
C'est parfait, un garçon jeuf qui parle le français et était trés gorgeous.

ego sum?
::07:57 p.m.::


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*sigh*

::Saturday, March 12, 2005::03:25 p.m.::

I had this urge to write. About what...I'm not sure. I'm supposed to be filling out this questionnaire for PGSA...but i'm not really up for it. Maybe it was because of this morning's incident and all the fatty greasy food that accumalated in my stomache. I also feel like speaking french, but not caring about grammar. Donc, Je le parle. Ok, cette nuit je viendrai à la cinema avec mes amis de Montana et un peu des autres. Une des autres c'est un garçon qui j'ai brasse....Done, Je crois que je serai embarrass quand je verrai lui...je ne veux pas le voir. Mais, nous verrons Le Jacket avec Adam Brodie et Keira Nightly et je les aimes. Oh c'est la vie, qu'est que c'est le point? Je veux un personne qui parle français parler avec moi...d'autre part, je ne veux pas...car...ce serait trange. Ceci sens de marque? bien. Français est la langue la plus belle...c'est trés romantique, et Je suis en trés grande romantique.

ego sum?
::03:25 p.m.::


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The Definitive Zoë

::Tuesday, March 8, 2005::07:52 p.m.::

From urbandictionary.com:

2. Zoe

she is beautiful and everyone loves her but not just because of her looks because she is the most wonderful smart funny creative unique kind person they will ever meet. some of them might not know it yet but having zoe as a friend will make their life all the more joyous and worthwhile.

i love zoe
i would like to dedicate my life to her

Source: master of diguise, Oct 23, 2004

I like their thinking :)

Lt: Court and Spark Joni Mitchell

ego sum?
::07:52 p.m.::


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Hell is the Hippest Way to Go

::Monday, March 7, 2005::09:14 p.m.::

Lt: Black Crow Joni Mitchell

I love my mother, she bought me this wonderful Joni Mitchell album today. It's filled with songs picked out by her friends and fellow artists...they have good choice.
Erica! YEA BLUE! "Songs are like tatoos, you know"
b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l
♥

ps: love the UD boys to death XD

and the inside of my right nostril hurts

ego sum?
::09:14 p.m.::


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We are still Innocent....

::Sunday, March 6, 2005::05:39 p.m.::

I want to go to GFS

history paper's can eat my poisonous apple (?)

ego sum?
::05:39 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Temptation, Frustration...so bad it makes him cry

::Thursday, March 3, 2005::09:36 p.m.::

Lt: Don't Stand So Close To Me Off the Beat

I AM SO EXCITED:
http://www.brynmawrfilm.org/

It's all I've been hoping for, a community run movie theater that shows new independent films and the classics....not to mention its going to give classes with staff from all the local liberal arts colleges.

So I am going to drag people with me to my new indie film house.

ego sum?
::09:36 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Cloning Debates

::Wednesday, March 2, 2005::10:53 p.m.::

"If cloning is perfected in humans, there would be no genetic need for men."

hmm, all of a sudden, cloning doesn't sound so bad.

premidlifecrisis: zoe, a bit bitter are we?
Ziggy 1310: ehhh
premidlifecrisis: lol
Ziggy 1310: I'm writing a position paper on cloning
Ziggy 1310: and i am writing it from the perspective of an animal lover, so basically no cloning ever
premidlifecrisis: ahh i see
premidlifecrisis: oh yes
premidlifecrisis: lol
premidlifecrisis: but
Ziggy 1310: but that sounds like a pretty convincing point
premidlifecrisis: haha
premidlifecrisis: women in favor of cloning
premidlifecrisis: the WFC you could start a club

Riiiiight, back to bio
premidlifecrisis: you'll just have to invent superior dildos

ego sum?
::10:53 p.m.::


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itchy arms right now, damn cats

::Tuesday, March 1, 2005::11:46 p.m.::

Lt:Take Me Out Franz Ferdinand

love how we're reading about his assisination in History.

YAY MY MOMMY AND PHOEBE RETURNED FROM THE LAND OF CALI! And they have tried to redeem my love with bunches and bunches of gifties (they did a superb job). IIIIII got:
Silky Pillow cover from Chinatown
Hot awesome Paul Frank/ Thomas Campbell shirt
Hot awesome turquise Julius sock puppet (my new love)
Posct card from my favorite Haight Street hangout: AMOEBA! Long-awaited Amoeba shirt!!! (in Navy no less XP)
Seeeeeees candy that I crave

I am ohoooho soo happy :))))

plus I found adorable children who act who I am going to babysit!!!

ego sum?
::11:46 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
mhmm

::Monday, February 28, 2005::09:38 p.m.::

sorry Erica and Rose, but I want him to be my prom date:


hot, I know.

ego sum?
::09:38 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Prom Dress

::Monday, February 28, 2005::01:54 p.m.::

so I've found a dress..well one that I like at least. Now to find a boy

when is this shindig again? April? Hah don't even know when my own prom is.
hmmm...what if I didn't go...I mean, my mom didn't go to her prom. I went to Haverford prom last year and that was fun and all but. I think I'm goin stag this year...unless I find someone I really want to take, because it would probably suck if I had a bad date. And its Baldwin anyways.

ego sum?
::01:54 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Here's Looking At You Kid ;)

::Sunday, February 27, 2005::06:53 p.m.::

lt: Cupid Jack Johnson

Casablanca is my new favorite movie. I was kind of scared that I would be dissapointed, but it definately had the opposite effect. That last scene was pefect...I mean even though you really want Rick and Ilsa to fly off together to Lisbon...

Ah what a lovely weekend (eh, for not being in California...still bitter). I SURVIVED getting around the city by myself! Plus I saw Rory on the train up, so she invited me to have breakfast at this amazing little waffle joint (yes, waffle joint) on Samson and 17th with her friend. Painting class was...special as always. I get a good laugh out of it. Love the class though...not to mention the people in it. Had a wonderful time trying to explain about my tshirt that Rose and Jenn got me in Spain (it was inteded for use in a wet tshirt contest). And there is such a wide range of styles and levels in our class...soo much fun to look at everyones stuff.
Well, got the gov school news: No for theater and yes for creative writing. Funny, because I thought it might be the opposite. But I'm just happy to be a semi-finalist :) I think Kirk (kid in my art class) might have applied for visual arts...must ask him next time. Ahhh March 13th is too close! And I can't remember any of the books I've read this year...gah.

Um. Jr/Sr exchange ROCKS.

ego sum?
::06:53 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
rien de comments si vous plait

::Wednesday, February 23, 2005::08:39 p.m.::

The Tale of Miss Gertrude McFuzz
There once was a girl-bird named Gertrude McFuzz
And she had the smallest, plainest tail there ever was
one droopy droop feather, that's all that she had
and oh, that one tail made Gertrude so sad.

Interesting, everyone thinks of me as being more Mayzie-like. But, at this moment I could never feel more kindred to my part in Seussical. No, I don't care about my looks (err, sortof)...I just...want someone to notice me. for me. I think that's one of the things I admire about Horton: he didn't recognize Gertrude because of her gorgeous feathers...he saw how truly amazing a person she was.
I'm so fatigued from this medecin, Perhaps that's why I'm getting all emotional right now...that and the conversation I just had. It's one of those screaming moments...NOTICE ME! And not because of my external appearance, but for ME Sure, it's flattering, but it's not the attention I want.
I was washing my hands tonight and caught my glance in the mirror. I was pale, worn out from a day of school and rehearsal. My hair was bent at weird angles, my eyelids drooped and I felt like my skin was sagging. At that moment, I knew why I wanted a real "companion', it's because I wanted a person who would like me, despite if I looked like crap. Because they wouldn't care about how I looked, they wouldn't even notice how I looked. They would notice me for me. They would think I was still sexy even if I hadn't plucked my eyebrows, or put mascara on. Sometimes, I feel like people don't see how lucky they are. They don't see how good they have it. Yes, they do have their problems that come along with the pleasures...but for me it's so frustrating to see them (what I feel like) waste everything. especially when that something I want so much. The worse is when you think its there...oh but its always a lie.

And I mean, I know I have my friends, and I love them all soo much. But there has always been something missing (to quote John Mayer). Seriously though, as fiercely independent and self-absorbed as I am (and scared of commitment/relationship), I strongly believe that I need something to complete me. And I hate saying that...because it makes me feel weak, that i'm not good unless i'm going out with a guy. And maybe that's not true, but right now I sure as hell feel like it. Maybe its for a moment like right now that I need a guy, that I feel like right now there should be a guy massaging my forever-tense shoulders, that he should be making me hot chocolate or just talking to me. I just want to be cared about. especially when I can't care enough.

And this is why I develop crushes so easily. I think. One of the reasons. I mean, there's also this part of me that feels like I never want to give myself up wholly to another person...because that would be treasonous or something. A traitor to myself. To just be strong-willed and go through life without having to depend on someone else.
But deep down, I know I need human love. Sound framiliar, right? God...I have found too many parallels between my life and Jane Eyre. Sooo I may not have had the proposition to be someone's mistress in the South of France in a gorgeous villa....but it feels like it was the same question. And no, i did not concede...follow temptation. I knew it was wrong so I obeyed that annoying voice in my head. Even though I knew I was giving up the chance of "love".
But would it really have been "love"? Well, it would have been a type of love, but not the kind I was looking for. So I didn't settle. It didn't satisfy me. And do I regret it, and wonder what would have happened if I said yes? Too much to feel ashamed about it. Even when I move on, there will always be those lingering pools of unaswered questions...potential situations. So you go back, review the situation. Would I have done it any differently? No. Or else I would have no self-respect this day. So you feel better for a few more days...until your medecation makes you fatigued again.

My sister is singing Notice Me Horton. Oh how cute.

ego sum?
::08:39 p.m.::


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Trent Ford is a SEXY BEAST

::Monday, February 21, 2005::08:19 p.m.::

Lt: This Devils Workday Modest Mouse

My body needs rehab. First this whole puking flu/monster-cold-lets-kill-my sinuses-and-have-lots-of-post-nasal-drippiness aaaaand now infected bug bites!! YES!!! It's tres sexy.

So I am ROYALLY excited for this upcoming week. (sarcasm) I'll spare you my bitterness though. I AM excited for Seussical to begin...except that we still don't have any guys. Gah I need a Horton! Pooo haverford.

Um, Trent Ford is a sexy beast, even with a mullet:



sooo um, watching him at a Pity Party = extrene agony

ego sum?
::08:19 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Gnome Cock...

::Tuesday, February 15, 2005::10:23 p.m.::

Cady wins the Champion of entertaining conversations tonight (and it was a very competitive running):

cadydid29 (9:42:07 PM): ooooh guess what came in the mail today
cadydid29 (9:42:34 PM): something two inches long, and white, and sexy
Ziggy 1310 (10:02:36 PM): two inches long
Ziggy 1310 (10:02:39 PM): white and sexy
cadydid29 (10:02:48 PM): very sexy
cadydid29 (10:03:10 PM): well... righit now, not so sexy
Ziggy 1310 (10:03:18 PM): does it grow in water?
cadydid29 (10:03:24 PM): twould be if it were doing what it was supposed to be doing
cadydid29 (10:03:27 PM): rofl no
Ziggy 1310 (10:03:40 PM): haha
Ziggy 1310 (10:03:43 PM): aan ipod?
cadydid29 (10:03:53 PM): a two inch long ipod?
Ziggy 1310 (10:03:54 PM): no thats much smaller than two inches
cadydid29 (10:03:55 PM): no
Ziggy 1310 (10:04:02 PM): sorry on the apple website
cadydid29 (10:04:13 PM): no no you are very on the right track
cadydid29 (10:04:29 PM): ipods are bigger than 2 inches, not smaller, m'dear
Ziggy 1310 (10:04:42 PM): clearly
Ziggy 1310 (10:04:47 PM): i'm brain dead right now
cadydid29 (10:04:57 PM): i DO have an ipod thouogh!
cadydid29 (10:05:09 PM): purchased avec my own blood and sweat
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:11 PM): ooooer aren't they lovely?
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:13 PM): wow
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:14 PM): congrats
cadydid29 (10:05:16 PM): oooooh yes
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:17 PM): my friend did that
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:23 PM): and then she broke it two days later
Ziggy 1310 (10:05:26 PM): silly bum
cadydid29 (10:05:33 PM): :'(
cadydid29 (10:05:46 PM): two inches bitch! white and xexy!
cadydid29 (10:06:03 PM): ipod was close
cadydid29 (10:06:09 PM): and that i have one is a hint
Ziggy 1310 (10:06:13 PM): well i have dirty thoughts
cadydid29 (10:06:37 PM): we all do... but i said two inches, not nine, silly
Ziggy 1310 (10:06:50 PM): haha thats why i was wondering...
Ziggy 1310 (10:06:58 PM): perhaps a gnome?
cadydid29 (10:07:05 PM): <3
Ziggy 1310 (10:07:10 PM): they are quite small so i would imagine that...
Ziggy 1310 (10:07:17 PM): no we're not going to imagine those sort of things
cadydid29 (10:07:26 PM): yes, a gnome penis
cadydid29 (10:07:56 PM): ok ok i must feast (on gnome cock) do you give up??
Ziggy 1310 (10:08:01 PM): YES
cadydid29 (10:08:10 PM): ITRIP
cadydid29 (10:08:12 PM): silly
Ziggy 1310 (10:08:17 PM): what??
cadydid29 (10:08:33 PM): go and read, they are zexy as hell
Ziggy 1310 (10:08:34 PM): wteff is that?
cadydid29 (10:08:45 PM): s'on the website
cadydid29 (10:08:48 PM): tis GOD
cadydid29 (10:08:55 PM): in the shape of a dildoh
Ziggy 1310 (10:09:11 PM): god will get away from the phallicness
Ziggy 1310 (10:10:00 PM): oooooooooooh
Ziggy 1310 (10:10:09 PM): so its the thing that gives you radio?
cadydid29 (10:10:29 PM): OUI
cadydid29 (10:11:13 PM): dinner, dinner
cadydid29 (10:11:17 PM): must go munch
cadydid29 (10:11:18 PM): bbl
Ziggy 1310 (10:11:24 PM): WOOOOOOOAH*
Ziggy 1310 (10:11:38 PM): now i know what you're talking about
cadydid29 (10:12:04 PM): YES
cadydid29 (10:12:13 PM): SEXY AS HWLL
cadydid29 (10:12:15 PM): HELL
cadydid29 (10:12:21 PM): <3 TO THE MAX
cadydid29 (10:12:24 PM): I LIKE TO YELL
cadydid29 (10:12:25 PM): BYE

*it was like a secret pocket moment

*sigh* california

Pity party this weekend?

and um, Rochester is the new Johnny Depp.

ego sum?
::10:23 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
heeeeeeeearts

::Monday, February 14, 2005::10:57 p.m.::

Lt: Notice Me Horton Mayzie and Horton

Ooooh yes...Seussical auditions tomorrow! And My throat is shot. SCORE

oh and HAPPY V-DAY
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

ego sum?
::10:57 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Fairy Tales are Fancy Free and are taken from Latin Mythology

::Tuesday, February 8, 2005::09:14 p.m.::

Lt: Trouble Ray Lamontagne

that's what i'm in right now. Eh. Soo mock trial got moved to 2 weeks from today!! AND I HAVE BARELY STARTED MEMORIZING!! Luckily Ameena and I didn't have to do much editing for the direct. Oh and then ACTs this weekend, and hourglass article for friday and latin project...due sometime....

and in making the whole world better, I'm sick.

and whiny...oh dear I should just shup now.

hmm its really weird to get emails and mail from colleges. Kinda feels nice that someone wants you though. Like Teddy. Teddy is my friend.

HAS ANYONE READ EAST OF THE SUN, WEST OF THE MOON?? Because if you have, you are my new best friend. (it's a fairy tale)

ego sum?
::09:14 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
A reason for waking up on saturday morning

::Sunday, February 6, 2005::10:55 p.m.::

Lt: Sunday Jim Adkins

Eagles lost the superbowl...big surprise. It was actually really close there on the end...NE didn't deserve to win.

Buuuuut besides that
I LOVE my new art classes at U Arts. Ok, yes maybe I've only had one and we spent most of it at Utrecht searching for the stupid sap green...but seriously, my teacher is really nice, perhaps a bit out of it, yet who am I to judge? And the kids are awesome. I met this girl Lindsay who went to gov. school for art and actually knows Bennett. Haha and she even invited me to go to this art show with her and some govies next week! So yea, there was also this kid from GFS who seemed nice...his cousins are the Braemers. And a bunch of other people who were all cool. AAh and yes so now I have all these new amazing art supplies to last me for years!!! And I bought so much paint that I get one for free :) I am so tempted to bring them in tomorrow, but I must resist and save it for the 19.

Sooo....california? ou non? eh

ego sum?
::10:55 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
What else is left to say? Early goodnight

::Wednesday, February 2, 2005::09:15 p.m.::

Lt: There Is A Light That Never Goes Out (originally by the Smiths) Joseph Arthur

Ah, the Hear Music Sweetheart collection, perfect to get one into the valentines mood. Especially when one has been feeling/acting/thinking very salty lately. I'm not sure exactly what that means, but when I find a definition I will post it. BUY IT

I am about to do something unheard of

I AM GOING TO GO TO BED EARLY

whilst my mother watches Garden State
bah.

Sooo off to read some Jane Eyre/Wuthering Heights/Gone With The Wind/....

sweet dreams and if you are male try out for our production of SEUSSICAL

ego sum?
::09:15 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
So, no only did Summer Stage, Ridley and Strath Haven do it...

::Wednesday, February 2, 2005::03:34 p.m.::

WE ARE DOING SUISSICAL FOR OUR MUSICAL

'nuff said

ego sum?
::03:34 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
DIE FUCKERS DIE ♥♥♥

::Monday, January 31, 2005::09:27 p.m.::

KILL THE WISDOM TEETH


Lt: Worth It All Kelly Dalton ♥

ego sum?
::09:27 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
I am the MASTER of Music Mixes

::Sunday, January 30, 2005::11:37 p.m.::

Lt:Everybody's Changing Keane

oooer what a weekend! Well...didn't actually do anything Friday, except for being lazy. On saturday, slept in nice and late, went and painted at the studio till 2 then Cassie's! Wooooo EA Snowball was actually really fun, I ended up seeing a lot of people i knew. Well, I met Cassie's friends, then Brooke was there and I saw crazy freshman like ReRe and Liza (making out with a boy...tisk tisk) oooh and Hannah's Mike from freshman year...and Andrew Conroy! Shmoo! Didn't see him till the end...he probably wouldn't remember me either. It's odd, I can remember thousands of people... Oh and that gross Robbie guy was there. Gross.

So afterwards we were going to go to Minella's but we ended up having to stay in...and wathing The Mask of Zoro. Ooer. With ANTONIO BANDERAS!!! Good times, I want to learn how to swordfight. It's Sexy

right. bed time ;)

ego sum?
::11:37 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
The bookworm that I am...

::Wednesday, January 26, 2005::11:42 p.m.::

Lt: Mary Sarah McLachlan

I have decided to teach myself Old English. Why? I am not so sure. I was walking upstairs and passed the bookcase and this book just stood out to me and I fully noticed it for the first time. I always knew it was there but...never cared. I'm not really sure why I care now.
Anyways, I picked it up and it turns out its this sortof Old English I text book kindof deal...vaguely reminicent of my Using Latin from freshman year. So, yes this is going to be fun and I will read Beowulf and revel in my ancient languages and gossip about Medieval Studies with my mother. Because this is why she took this course...
Love how she went from a Medieval Studies degree to becoming a Librarian. Then again, she did go to Colby because of the skiing.
Good to know I can be flexible with my options.

Besides this little ditty, I still have to finish Wuthering Heights and now Gone With the Wind (Gabby's choice) and I HAVE to read Kite Runner and god I still haven't finished The Caves of Perigord. Oh but that's only the tip of the iceburg of my reading list...only the tip.

ego sum?
::11:42 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
What can I say to a statement like that

::Wednesday, January 26, 2005::06:28 p.m.::

 Lt:Loneliest Girl in the World (demo) Cary Brothers

so whilst setting aside my personal feelings and doing my girl scout badges proud (AKA listening to bretterson about his breakup with dana) I get this:

BBretterson23: i think maybe ill start taking your idea
BBretterson23: just stay out of relationships for the most part

Ziggy 1310 (10:38:43 PM): I don't know how to respond to that...

oh brutal twisted honesty.

:edit:
well, apparently that was an observation...not a personal opinion. However, is that any better?

fuck I'm not feeling well...I'm chilled and sweating at the same time...If I got food poisoning from that dim sum...*sigh*

ego sum?
::06:28 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
4/6...Just 2 More to GOOOO

::Monday, January 24, 2005::10:19 p.m.::

Lt:Eleanor Rigby The Beatles

All the lonely people.... This used to be Rose's favorite Beatle's song...I always think about that when I hear this song. And the very odd scene during the Yellow Submarine movie. Gabby inspired me to rummage through stacks and find my Beatle's 1 album, although, apparently only the Japanese call it that.

So we have started a new hairdoo fad called Le Moderne Poof and if you are a slave to fashion you better get up on it now. It's hot and only takes a few seconds and basically how I wear my hair everyday :)

BOOOOO. I don't like math. I am not a math person. If I have to memorize anything more for any stupid class my brain will explode. Maybe I could get a doctor's note forbiding me from tomorrow's midterms on the count that if I study anymore my brain will explode, and I don't think the janitors would like to clean up that mess; I'm only thinking in the intrests of the school! And the trauma that an event like that would cause...they would probably have to cancel midterms for forever! hm, maybe I would be like some kind of martyr then.

Riiiiiight. I still have to study pre-calc though *gag* and latin *choke* and I am basically doing the thing i'm best at right now (no, not my donald duck impression, although that is quite good too), procrastination. I am the queen of procrastination. However, I might have to dethrone myself if I want to get a decent grade on these exams....

Do master hair-stylists really need to know horizantle asymptotes?

ego sum?
::10:19 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
New Glasses...like Rivers Cuomo or something

::Saturday, January 22, 2005::10:20 p.m.::

I gots some hot new glasses

ego sum?
::10:20 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
My Bed is COLD...Midterms Suck

::Saturday, January 22, 2005::03:04 p.m.::

Lt:Violin Concerto Number 3 in G Astor Piazzolla and the New Tango Quartet
It's snowing. and I'm inside studying for my midterms...or trying to. My bed is cold


Clearly I had fun wasting time and trying to make this look a bit more interesting. I call it ballet.

ego sum?
::03:04 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Suddenly Xanga is Looking Really Good

::Saturday, January 22, 2005::12:12 a.m.::

Lt:23 Jimmy Eat World
Ah, love how itunes shuffle can just sense my emotions.

for some reason I don't want to post on this site anymore. Wow. I mean, I've had this for almost 3 years, probably the longest relationship I've ever maintained in my life (except for Mr. Bearly (Mr. Bearly being my stuffed bear I've had since I was wee)). I need a lower maitenance journal I think. But...I love this freedom and individuality this little bloggilog gives me to customize etc.

Well I wore the cutest little outfit today for my exams, the best part being my black angora sweater I got for hols from (one of my favorites) Free People. Buuuuut of course, there is a bad side to everything I guess. Ying and Yang etc. Equillibrium (damn bio). AKA my sweater has a serious shedding problem; I am worse than both of my golden retrievers combined. You can tell where I have been because I leave a path of black fuzz wherever I go! Even Hansel and Gretle couldn't get lost. So then I was wearing this cute little white tanktop underneath, and of course its covered in little black bunny fuzz. fun. Sooo whilst I watch the OC I was taking a sticky roller and attacking it (the white shirt) and after five revolutions it was done-ish. I will probably never get all that black fuz out.

Really freaky though,
Hung out with Rose and Matt G. tonight and we did a party number over at Coldstones. So we park in this spot and I'm like, "Woah! I parked in this spot last time!...Woah! It was after the first snow!...WOAH! I WAS WEARING THIS SWEATER!"

Symbolic?
perhaps not.
Of course this all refers back to the night I hung out with Andy...day after xmas? And we went to that horrendous Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert and left halfway through because they were only playing carols, and frankly, I was caroled out immediately when 12 of Dec. 26 came.

Sooo I think my itunes knows me better than myself sometimes:
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here and now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Wait.
This just totally contradicts the whole Zen patience thing.
Fuck.

ego sum?
::12:12 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Bitter Bio is Burning this Bachman

::Thursday, January 20, 2005::07:49 p.m.::

Lt: Night and Day Cole Porter

God I can be such tenor. *Sigh* Love this song, and the man singing it.

I AM SO FARKING SICK OF BIO!:
Ziggy 1310 (7:48:22 PM): AH I AM SOOOOO SICK OF BIO!!!! BAH BIO BLECH BIO BAD BIO BLASPHEMOUS BIO BITTER BIO

Auto response from ZenMetal1031: Take a look at yourself

Not at anyone else

And tell me what you see
Ziggy 1310 (7:48:48 PM): a person who is sick and tired and about to burn her bio textbook

Honestly. 12 hours of bio is enough to make a person burn themselves. Hah and now I'm all drowsy from the medication I took, its all peachy.

ego sum?
::07:49 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Animated Men are my Only Boyfriends

::Monday, January 17, 2005::10:01 p.m.::

Lt:Calling All Angels (Live) Train

Alright, I'll say something. Possibly.

Midterms start this week and I'm remembering how hard it is to motivate myself to do things sometimes. Especially when your sister got Sims 2 for her bat mitzvah and it's just oh-so-too tempting to live vicariously through your animated self and her relationship with the perfect man you created.

Or Johnathan Rice...I need to buy lots of cds. Tons. And buy new earphones because I cannot stand these earbuds any longer. And did I mentioin I love Alexi Murdoch? This live version of Orange Sky makes me swoooon...all boys should sing, and they should sing to me and comfort me.

Phoebe's bat-mitzvah kicked serious ass, it was the best time I had in a really long time...which I guess says a lot. But seriously, just hanging around with my friends, crazy dancing and singing and twirling and amazing food makes the perfect party. We should have these things more often.

Mmm back to sleep, but before that I'm gonna finalyl finish The Caves of Perigord only because I've been trying to finish this for a year...or more.

ego sum?
::10:01 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Breathe, Just Breathe (whooooooosh)

::Wednesday, January 12, 2005::09:42 p.m.::

if i get it all down on paper
its no longer inside of me
threat'ning the life it belongs to

sing it if you understand

Lt: Wasting Time Jack Johnson

ah, how utterly appropriate.
hello world, I'm off to study for two gigantimooose tests.
And the school work week of hell comes to a close.

Soon to be followed by a weekend of stressed-out strangling mothers. Hello Phoebe's bat-mitzvah. And the torah portion I haven't memorized.

I'm starting to think I don't have any more room in my brain for memorized things. Honestly, between vocabulary for three different languages, the science of biology, various monologues (which I grandly fucked up) and torah portions....I'm surprised my head is still normal looking. Well, normal for my head that is.

ego sum?
::09:42 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Let's All Become Singer/Songwriters and be FRIENDS

::Saturday, January 8, 2005::12:43 p.m.::

Lt: Breathe (2 AM) Anna Nalick
Ah I'm so glad I have returned to my singer/songwriter roots. Why did I ever leave?
haha and I love how they are all friends...
boooo mom is not going to let me go to the Live at the World Café concert tonight...perhaps another time. Bah and she was also supposed to get my cell phone...buhh there's no cell phone. And Five for Fighting has a new song out that sounds a lot like that Jane Say song...only because they keep on repeating those two words.
and why is the Gary Jules version of Mad World not on iTunes?? It's on his cd Trading Snakeoil for Wolftickets...boo
MY OC BOX SET CAME!!!!!!!!!
looks like lots of looooong nights at home by myself and Seth ;)

(that was one jumbled entry)

ego sum?
::12:43 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
I FINISHED GOV. SCHOOL APPS! GIVE A CHEER!

::Wednesday, January 5, 2005::11:32 p.m.::

I AM DONE! I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED! I CAN HAVE A LIFE NOW!
wait...
I was lying about the latter.
Now I get to learn a torah portion for my sister's bat-mitzvah, write two essays for next week, memorize another monologue...and don't get me started about midterms.

Welcome back to Junior Year...
Lt: Suite No. 5 in C minor for solo cello Edith Piaf with the Guy Luypaerts Orchestra
Mmmm yay for le français! Which reminds me...need to write Audrey back. (ps: she is the coolest correspondent ever! And I am lacking...)

ego sum?
::11:32 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
I love Cole Porter, even if he could be an ass sometimes

::Wednesday, December 29, 2004::12:11 a.m.::

Lt:Let's Do It (Let's Fall In Love) Alanis Morissette

I love Cole Porter, he writes one amazing love song. Several actually. De-Lovely was very very good, and even made me tear at the end. I loved the music sooo much I had to immediately buy the soundtrack. I've always been a Cole Porter fan, but the way it was performed in this movie was superb. However, some of the artists don't quite match up with Ella Fitzgerald, but then again, who can?

Sucks that he was so mean to his wife even though he loved her. And the alternate ending sucked just as much, that was just bitterness.

ego sum?
::12:11 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
I am imposing a self-ban on concerning the computer

::Tuesday, December 28, 2004::07:06 p.m.::

Lt:Joy to the World Pastor Patrinell Wright With The Total Experience Gospel Choir

Hey Kids,
I'm do a self-ban on my computer until I get my gov. school apps done. Sooooooooooo till then, have fun and don't expect me to post or be online. This is going to be hella hard for me but it needs to be done. I'm also under house arrest (practically). Katie and Jennie visited me today and were only allowed a 15 min visiting time. Then I was let out for my outside recreation. Besides that, I've been in my room writing my personal narratives and now I'm about to memorize my monologue. Kill. Kill something. Um....so I think that's all for now and i'll see some of you on New Years Eve!

ego sum?
::07:06 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Secretly I wrote this the day after...but who gives a camel's toe?

::Saturday, December 25, 2004::10:10 p.m.::

Lt:Last Christmas Jimmy Eat World

So, grabbed this lovely survey off of Alex's blog and used it to stifle* my boredome.

LAYER ONE: On The Outside
Name: Allison Zoë Bachman
Birthdate: Nov 2nd, 1988
Birthplace: Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Current Location: Swarthmore, PA
Eye Color: Blue/Greyish
Hair Color: Brown/Blonde/Red highlites? Can anyone give a definate description?
Height: 5' 1"
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio


LAYER TWO: On The Inside--
Your heritage: Eastern European (Latvian, Estonian, some Pol/Slav), French Canadian, so French, English, German, Native American (Basically an American mutt)
The shoes you wore today: my cute fairisle booties from UO.
Your weakness: gorgeous men, sexy accents, urban outfitters (and their male employees...)
Your fears: being scared. And marrying the wrong person.
Your perfect pizza: either Pinapple or BBQ chicken (Peace Pizza style)
Goal you'd like to achieve: Currently...to become the curator of the Metrapolitan Museum of Art in NYC. Or become the female Indiana Jones. And meet my soul mate

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow--
Your most overused phrase online: haha
Your thoughts first waking up: "It's Christmas and it's much too early to wake up...go away Phoebe"
Your best physical feature: My eyes? I sort of like my lips..except for when I smile.
Your bedtime: Whenever...never earlier than 12 these days
Your most missed memory: Running around Edinburgh those last few days...completely independent and self assured with some of my greatest friends.

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick--
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or Burger King: not a fast food person. Wendy's if its a must
Single or group dates: definately single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas made our hot XC shirts!
Nesta or lipton tea: No clue
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate!
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino, but i'm more of a double-espresso-with-two-packets-of-sugar kinda gal.

LAYER FIVE: Do You?--
Smoke: nope
Cuss: Not as much as I used to...
Sing: do you have to ask? ALL THE TIME
Have (a) crush(es): too many or none. I can never tell.
Do you think you've been in love: no, I almost thought I was once...but I wasn't.
Want to go to college: Yes!! FREEDOM! Now the problem is getting IN
Like school: Eh, the people and even the classes. The workload? No.
Want to get married: Yes, but see above (fear)
Believe in yourself: Somedays
Get motion sickness: on carny rides
Think you're attractive: "When the light hits me at a certain angle, yes", and when I get hit on by attractive, yet bald 21 yearolds at family Xmas parties
Think you're a health freak: Being a convert of my mother's, then yes.
Get along with your parents: Yup.
Like thunderstorms: LOVE THEM. Thunderstorm Party!
Play an instrument: piano (used to), voice, can play "Ode to Joy" on the guitar.

LAYER SIX: In the past month--
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: nope
Done a drug: nope
Made Out: yes
Gone on a date: yep
Gone shopping: tis the season
Eaten an entire box of cookies: nope, almost ate all of lauren's snowballs though. And Elizabeth's for that matter...
Eaten sushi: No! :( grrrrr
Been on stage: Hell yea! Real Inspector Hound baby.
Been dumped: um, not really
Gone skating: if you can call what I did today skating...
Made homemade cookies: oooh yes, I am becoming the master baker
Gone skinny dipping: nope (but in Maine... ;))
Dyed your hair: Never.
Stolen anything: Only my friend's clothing

LAYER SEVEN: Ever--
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Many a time
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: I have appeared that way many a time
Been caught "doing something": not necessarily caught...but watched?
Been called a tease: Yes
Gotten beaten up: They tried to
Shoplifted: Once when I was 5 I accidentally took a Barbie. Until the alarm went off.

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older--
Age you hope to be married: Before 30, but it doesn't matter too much
Numbers and Names of Children: Oh god. No idea. I really like the names Callie and Riley...all i can think of right now.
How do you want to die: Peacefully.
Where you want to go to college: Gah, why are you asking this now? Um Top of My list: Vassar, Weslyan, Columbia, NYU, Brown, and somewhere overseas...gap year? Maybe University of Edinburgh :)
What do you want to be when you grow up: Indiana Jones. Or the Curator of the Met. Didn't we already fo through this?

LAYER NINE: In a partner--
Best eye color?: Chocolate Brown, or Hazel
Best hair color?: Dark Dark, lose-yourself in it brown. and curly :) (however, bald isn't bad)
Short or long hair: looooooooong (but not below sholder...unless you can pull it off), touseled (again, bald sometimes works)
Height: considering I'm 5'1"...5'6" to 6'? I really have no preference. I've dated all.
Best weight: eh? Need to have some meat. strong. Lies, skinny boys can be cute. I like 'em all.
Best articles of clothing: tight Tshirts that hug nice muscly chests and abs
Best first date location: Hanging out anywhere, just to get to know eachother. Coffee House? Art gallery or museum.

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers--
Number of drugs taken illegally: zip, I'm clean
Number of times: nada
Number of people I could trust with my life: surprisingly a lot, I can say 10 with confidence. Maybe I'm too trusting.
Number of CDs that I own: looooots, don't want to count. I have over 1000 songs on my ipod.
Number of piercings: 2 in each ear, want my nose
Number of tattoos: none, don't want any
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I was quoted in the Billings paper for our Montana Arts Roundup! And I've been in the Swarthmorean too many times to count...


Whoooosh so have fun reading that monster. I'm off to bed, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!

*Where is Claire?

more about xmas eve party later ;)

ego sum?
::10:10 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Craving books, especially A Series Of Unfortunate Events

::Friday, December 24, 2004::12:43 a.m.::

Everyone should go see A Series of Unfortunate Events, it was amazing! The acting was fantabulous, especially Jim Carrey (and of course Judy Dench). Blah, I watched 3 movies today in the space of 12 hours...talk about making the most of my winter break. Ugh, but my mother's waking me up at 9 tomorrow so I can do "work". Bah. Actually, I do have a lot of work to do...might as well get it done soon so I can enjoy the rest of my winter break.
Ooer, and Jude Law was the voice of Lemony Snicket! Even in the shadows he looked sexy.....
Oh man I need to finish watching Cold Mountain before break is over. And see Alfie. And every other movie he's been in. XD

ego sum?
::12:43 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
zen and the art of snowboarding

::Wednesday, December 22, 2004::02:51 p.m.::

Lt:She's the One The Ramones

Honestly, I'm starting to feel Zen all around me.
First this talk with Andy, then Brett trying to teach us the "art of snowboarding" and attempting to find the inner Zen Balance so we won't fall on our asses every five seconds, and then I see a book mixing Zen and the SATS. IT'S EVERYWHERE!

Speaking of snowboarding.....omfg it was amazing. Haha and I'm saying this whilst being bruised and beaten up by the slope. I don't ever remember being this sore in my life (even including preseason), and I don't bruise easily. Page and I are totally going back (hopefully this thursday? students night?) but Eva on the other hand....ooh Eva :). She can ski and kick our asses.

NAPOLEON DYNAMTIE PARTY TODAY!!!!!!

ego sum?
::02:51 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Andyism is my new religion

::Tuesday, December 21, 2004::12:28 a.m.::

Can I just say that Andy Bree is one of the most amazing people I have ever met and am lucky to call him my twinny. I want zen. I want this wisdom, inner peace that he possesses. I want everyone to understand and be able to have this (as corny as it may sound). I have never met a more selfless person in my life, and here I am probably the most selfish...I go around whining about how I don't have a boyfriend when there are so many more lonely people out in the world. I'm lucky to have amazing friends and a family who truly cares. So what if I don't have a boyfriend? It just means I haven't met the right person yet, and I'm just going to have to wait. And that's what Andy did. He understood and was patient and waited and he was fortunate enough to meet Eva, and now they are soo happy with eachother.

My whole life I have been wanting and craving every few seconds for something (usually a boy). It blocks my view, it blinds me. It's one of the reasons why I decided to start going to an all girls school (seriously). I need to learn how to control, channel this energy in to more productive activities and not waste my life on some asswipe who just wants to make out in the back of a car. No. I am done with that. And yes, I may not have a boyfriend until I'm 50; but I know that when I do, he'll be the right one.

ego sum?
::12:28 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
simple suggestion

::Monday, December 20, 2004::02:13 p.m.::

Lt:How to be Dead Snow Patrol

Andy is teaching me Zen philosophy. I am to be patient, and harmonize my body. Basically, when the shit hits the fan, stay calm and collect yourself, keep yourself in line.
I am going to teach myself how to meditate now.

*closes eyes*
mmmmmmmm oh ummmmmmmmmmm


I am to be patient

patient patient patient

just be patient


*opens one eye*

eh....I am waiting here patiently and still no prince charming. I want a refund.


Well I'll patiently wait whilst shopping with Rose in Philly.

ego sum?
::02:13 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
good to wisk ourselves away

::Sunday, December 19, 2004::09:00 p.m.::

Lt:Good Enough Sarah McLachlan

I loved Joy's little entry sooo much that I decided to post it here:
Guide to Lessening the Effects of Heartbreak
by Joy the Heartbreak/Emotionally Whacko expert

Clearly, there is no possible way to avoid heartbreak, unless you choose to live like a hermit in a lonely igloo in Antarctica, in which case suicide and depression seem inevitable. However one must remember that heartbreak is figurative language. Your most vital organ is not actually smashed to bits though it may feel similar; therefore, you will live. Since there is no preventive method for heartbreak, one can only mitigate the consequences of heartbreak.

The most common response to heartbreak is crying, or incessant sobbing over some worthless piece of a creature (in most cases, boys). First i will explain how to avoid crying. Think of it this way. the offender clearly is inconsiderate of your feelings, why deplete your sodium supply for him? If you have a clear strength of logic, you would stop sobbing right now and go do something productive...like homework. Unfortunately, there exists people whose eyes are perpetual water faucets. You can identify these people because they are the ones who can not sit through a movie without crying (except for the spongebob squarepants movie because that was just a stupid movie). For these crazy people, i can only help them look normal after their salty face shower. First the eyes. These should be your top priority. When a person cries, their eyes turn red and puffy. You would be surprised how scary this result looks especially if your have asian eyes (eastern asian that is). Emotional asian people's eyes look like they have been beaten with a big stick along with a bad case of pink eye. depending on how big your eyes are in the first place, the size of your new eyes may vary from the size of a small almond to nonexistence. To prevent this freakish transformation, one should cry with a cold wet towel over your eyes at all times. Make sure your towel isn't dripping wet becuase a slobbery shirt is just as embarrassing as mosquito size eyes. Next for criers of all races, the tears take quite a toll on your skin. Thus, one should always cry upside down. That way your tears will fall on your forehead and dry the oil in your T-zone, which would prevent pimples in that area for as long as you are crying. Side-effects of this remedy into headache from the blooding rushing to your head, and inability to breathe through your nose from the mucuous. Also you look ridiculous. If your are a weightwatcher, crying believe it or not makes you hungry. But DO NOT EAT! Pity eating in most cases lead to looking like you inflated yourself with 1 mole of air (that is 22.4 liters for those who are chemistry illiterate).

in contrast to emotionally unstable people, there are those who bottle their anger and hurt within themselves. Much of the time i envy these people but then these people tend to explode. I think if i fell into this category, i would play a game with myself. See how many SAT words i can memorize before breakdown n drench the whole practice book. ahh...spoken like a true baldwin girl.

anyway, so this concludes my sage article. When you do overcome this heartbreak, i suggest you go to the club (whether a night club or the chess club is your choice) and pick up new guys. Although new guys may mean new heartbreak. so what? heartbreak doesn't kill you. What doesn't kill you make you stronger. In fact it makes you have a stronger SAT vocab and/or a pimpleless forehead.

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now, an SAT type question to test your SAT Verbal skills:

It can be inferred from the passage that

a) penguins that live in Antarctica are doomed to death.

b) Every emotional person has pimples

c) Heartbreak never happens to plants

d) the author is a baldwin girl who just fed herself 3 brownies after crying over a guy

e) 1 groundhog can be equated with 22.4 liters of gas

My answer is d. Oh Joysie...did nasty Penn do something horrible? Harrumph.
Well,
I don't really know what to say, except that this greatly amused me. So, am I then laughing at joy's anguish?...oh dear...it did make me feel a bit better.
and how many times have I said that I wanted to become a hermit?

ego sum?
::09:00 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
should i be sleeping

::Saturday, December 18, 2004::12:24 p.m.::

Lt:Don't Panic Coldplay

Wow, first day of Winter Break, I have been waiting for this moment for such a long time. Except, it's not going to be much of a break...catching up in history, figuring out everything there is to know about latin III, memorizing my shakespeare monologue, memorizing my gov. school monologue, filling my writing portfolio for gov. school...

But I'm not going to let all that get to me! I slept in today for the firs time in weeks, which was sublime. I'm not doing anywork today if I can help it. Going to sit at home and read and watch movies and be a lazy bum and then go to Page's holiday concert in the city. Ho hum that sounds like a fun plan.

ego sum?
::12:24 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
getting to know you

::Thursday, December 16, 2004::03:27 p.m.::

YES! We got the letters from our french correspondents today!!! I'm practically the only person who has a girl and all of them are about a year younger than us. My girl's name is Audrey and she likes to draw, watch movies and do things with her computer. Awesome, we both love art. Haha and she's been to scotland! Ooooer I am soo excited for this french trip, I can't wait for spring break.
speaking of breaks....
WINTER BREAK STARTS TOMORROW AFTERNOON!

ego sum?
::03:27 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
KR I know two winners

::Wednesday, December 15, 2004::11:51 p.m.::

So I was looking at who won The Kenyon Review poetry contest last year besides Bennet, and lo and behold, I know the first place winner. Robin Myers of Maplewood, NJ. The first thing that drew my eyes was Maplewood, NJ, since I have family there. Then I looked at the name and recognized my friend Robin from my first year at Ballibay. Originally when I found out she lived in NJ, I asked if she knew my relatives; turns out her brother and my cousin Jake are best friends. Soo now its a bit of a shocker to see her name up there after all these years....Odd that I know 2 of the winners...really odd.

ego sum?
::11:51 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
little shop revival in the living room

::Monday, December 13, 2004::08:38 p.m.::

I feel like I am in a revival of Little Shop of Horrors: there are tons of gigantic, viny, exotic plans clutterring my family room. I walked through my back door today and came face to face with this large, waxy leaf beast! Apparently my mom is "plantsitting" some of her advisees plants for the holiday. Apparently these were some of her smaller ones.

ego sum?
::08:38 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
i am crazy

::Sunday, December 12, 2004::09:28 a.m.::

It's 47 degrees out. With the windchill, it feels about 36. Please remind me again, WHY I am going running?

Edit: Boy, that was a good time. But I'm happy because I could actually pace myself! Huzzah, that's a first. Um, so there were two other people running, a student and an old man. So I sit down to stretch and I look at the student and realize that I know him. Well, not that well, but he was working in the library this summer with me...doing some study on some quaker. I remember he had a really annoying laugh...he's a crazy fast runner though.

ego sum?
::09:28 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
jelly donuts make me swoon

::Sunday, December 12, 2004::12:32 a.m.::

Lt:Tomorrow Morning Jack Johnson

My mom mentioned Tisch. She actually mentioned Tisch as a possibility. MY MOM SAID I COULD APPLY TO TISCH FOR COLLEGE! Not only did she say I could apply, she said that we have CONNECTIONS.
I wonder if this is because of what M. Night said...hah.

I feel like I have oil everywhere. Well, I guess that's what I get for eating 4 latkas and 3 donuts for dinner....mmmmmm. Oh I love hannukah parties! and Christmas Carol! haha and CLUELESS! Boo I am angry I had to leave before it was over...love that movie soo much. Hah and I love how we picked up on soo many things that we used to be too young to understand. I love Jane Austen, Emma is such a wonderful book. Everything is wonderful right now...not sure why. It just is. I feel really light hearted and happy and content. I think it's because my mom said i could apply to Tisch. XD

ego sum?
::12:32 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
lard

::Thursday, December 9, 2004::10:29 p.m.::

Lt:Blue Eyes Cary Brothers
He's an awesome singer/songwriter. Haha at first i thought it was actually two brothers with the last name Cary; whatever, he's good. Download Lonliest Girl In the World, another amazing tune.

80's Dance tomorrow! Mmm makes me think of Scotland...
I can't believe I forgot to request "Dancing With Myself"! Honestly, I wrote down every other song....grr I knew I was forgetting something...Whatever, I requested everything else and more. Whooo dressing up for this is going to be crazy fun! Even guys (being Andy) are worrying about their outfits. Too bad he doesn't have his grungy 80's metal death hair anymore. And I don't have my crazy frizziness...haha but i'm sure it wouldn't be hard to ressurect, especially with the help of a cheap cimper.

ego sum?
::10:29 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
eating pocky

::Thursday, December 9, 2004::05:24 p.m.::

Andy is the best twinny EVER. He came to school today so he could give me my highly belated (better now than never)bday present, and so I could give him my wonderful mix. Soooo, first off he gives me this certificate, for one full day of Andy, complete with chauffer and shopping privledges. Hah and I love his mom, she wrote it on pretty, official looking paper in caligraphy. AH! AND HE GAVE ME THE GARDEN STATE SOUNDTRACK! I've wanted this cd for forever and am possibly in love with almost every song. Now...if only the dvd was out so I could request it for hannukah...

evilness, SAT tutor at 9 tonight. And have I finished the test he assigned me at least two weeks ago?

hah hah hah

ego sum?
::05:24 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
supposed to be doing OOP

::Wednesday, December 8, 2004::10:05 a.m.::

I need to finish typing up this OOP thing.
Dammit I wish I had a car and could take things into my own hands. There's still something wrong here...

I was looking for a soliloquy I could perform for that Shakespeare competition thing and I stumbled across this play called Troilus and Cressida. Cressida is a very interesting, complex character: she loves Trolius, but doesn't want him to really know that. She has this entire monolugue where she tries to tell him how much she really loves him, than holds herself back and argues with herself. She's scared that if she appears to easily won by him, he will no longer desire her (because she is now attainable). However, she doesn't want him to think that she doesn't love him and then leave her. Haha I love at the end how she's like, just kiss me to shut me up. She feels threatened and thinks that by professing her love, she is weak, which explains why she tries to stop herself so many times.

hah, feel like I just wrote an essay.

Um, please. Why am I running the 4 X 800 AND the 4 X 400. Does that make any sense? I am going to be so sore tonight.

ego sum?
::10:05 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
procrastination frustration

::Monday, December 6, 2004::09:15 p.m.::

ugh, so don't want to study for this math test, so this is my last bit of procrastination frustration.

Ooer, the fishy Sarah bought me is so pretty! It's one of those Japanese Fighter Fishes and has this gorgeous long tail...deep blue and turquoise, reminds me of tassles. And it comes complete with a pretty lily! (at least that's what I think it is) and turquoise stones at the bottom, mmm it matches my room :).

so 5 min wasted. I extremely dislike math and hope that i really won't have to study much...oh and have to study math...and french...thank god I have a free tomorrow.
We're doing sonnets in english! Mmmm love poems, immortality in writing. It's interesting, the human obsession with imortality and the ability to have a lasting impression on the world. Haha I think that's why I want someone to write a song about me, or have Gail (or anyone) base a character off of me in her book, or have my portrait painted. Maybe it stems from my intrest in art history and archeology and the fact that people have survived through their art for centuries after their death...

ah sugar, ah honey honey
you are my candy girl
and you got me wanting you...
I have to say, I make some killer mixes

right, work! YES! 10 min wasted. mother will kill.

AH! M. NIGHT SHAMALYAN IS GIVING A SPECIAL ASSEMBLY AT MY SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!

ego sum?
::09:15 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
I am Heidi

::Sunday, December 5, 2004::10:32 p.m.::

Lt: Goldberg Variations Glenn Gould

I want, no not want, need to read the Heidi Chronicles. After Rose read that excerpt...ah! I just want more! Slightly coincidental that Heidi majored in Art History at Vassar...And that scene Rose read me!! I wish I had the book so I could write down some quotes. It's basically a scene between Heidi and this reporter Scoop Rosenbaum (how jewish), and just...the interaction between the two of them. I wonder if she has a monologue, because I'm sure it would be perfect for gov. school! Wow, gov. school...I've talked to both Dr. Ledlie and Ms. Cris. and now I just have to figure things out for myself, there's only so much they can do to help. Well, I first need to get things written for Dr. Ledlie, oh which reminds me about Kenyon Review. And Roman Candle. Bah...and I need to go find my Shakespear soliloquy book too...

right, need to waste less time online. HAH.

ego sum?
::10:32 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
for some reason 51 ends all time

::Saturday, December 4, 2004::11:51 p.m.::

I feel really mediocre right now.
caring is creepy

ego sum?
::11:51 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
x is for xylaphones

::Saturday, December 4, 2004::07:21 p.m.::

Lt: Run Snow Patrol

Mmmmm The White Dog Café was great today. Thanks so much guys, had a wonderful time.

its kindof cold in my room...where is the heat?
Mom wasn't happy with my report card, well, neither was I. Why can't I just get myself to understand that this year is actually somewhat serious? If I want to get into the schools I'm looking at, I honestly have to put some more care into my school work. I need to follow through. I should go write poetry...I am so bored I needed to write something so I came to my blog. Channel that energy into doing some history instead of just waisting away my life at a machine.

I don't know what I am doing. I think, I did something...or maybe I just didn't do anything. Oh god what is the point of writing something if you have to mask its meaning? I mean, could anyone honestly know what I'm talking about in those last few sentences? *sigh* I want to talk the truth, to at least one person.

ego sum?
::07:21 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
kenyon review rocks

::Monday, November 29, 2004::10:43 p.m.::

I love it. It is perhaps one of the most gorgeous things I have ever witnessed in all my sixteen years.

The deadline for the Kenyon Review Poetry Contest has been extended to December 15.

Someone up there must really be rooting for me
(thank god)

(err... no pun intended)

ego sum?
::10:43 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
Doot doot I want Indie

::Saturday, November 27, 2004::11:05 p.m.::

Lt:Green Eyes Coldplay

God I am so happy right now. I just saw a great movie and had COLSTONES! YES! THEY FINALLY OPENED A COLDSTONES THAT ISN'T 5 BILLION MILES AWAY!
So I am truly content right now :)

Yea, saw National Treasure with Will and Aly (Ally? Ali? Alli?). It was actually really good! Yay for history thrillers. *sigh* I want to be Indiana Jones when I grow up. seriously. I want to become a famous archeologist and go hunting around the world for treasure and solve ancient puzzles. ooer how adventuresome! And of course, I would get the incrediably gorgey guy at the end. Yessssss, I really want to be Indiana Jones. or Sophie LeDrue or whatever her name is. stop laughing.

>>ps: archive page at the bottom actually works now ; )

ego sum?
::11:05 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
play crack the sky

::Tuesday, November 23, 2004::10:12 p.m.::

Lt: Play Crack the Sky Brand New

YAY TURKEY BREAK!!!

Who wants to go hunting?
(for an Underground Railroad Secret Passage Way that is)

ego sum?
::10:12 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
stormy lundi

::Monday, November 22, 2004::06:10 p.m.::

Lt:Stormy Monday Stevie Ray Vaughn and Albert King

Interesting how Andy and Mr. Moltz have the same taste in music...

ONE MORE DAY UNTIL FREEDOM! Well, at least a five day weekend. A nice break before the hell we are going to have to endure the 15 days of school before winter break! roar.

Ah I have become a celebrity : ). First, a bunch of random guys came up to me at the Can Dance and congratulated me on my performance (in Real Inspector Hound). Of course, they mentioned the kiss. Then today, as I was passing by the LM bus, someone shouted out the window: "Hey! You were in the play! WHO KILLED SIMON GASCOYNE??" I couldn't see who it was though....
Ah I will forever be remembered as the girl who kissed Max Black on stage.

PUMPKIN PIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ego sum?
::06:10 p.m.::


 aujourd'hui
make the hardest things easy

::Sunday, November 21, 2004::09:59 a.m.::

Lt: Drugs For Me JEW

la dee da. I just cancelled my SAT tutor for today...par ce que I didn't do anything. And i feel like shit. However, I didn't tell him that.

I think I shall go back to bed...I really just want to sleeeeeeeeeep!
My mom is currently running the Philly marathon, crazy woman. crazy, crazy woman. Yesterday my mom told me I should run one, however I should wait until I'm 18. That's going to be her idea of a birthday present: getting me to run a marathon. Oh god. I will stick to my 4X8 relay thank-you-very-much.

ego sum?
::09:59 a.m.::


 aujourd'hui
pneu is a tire

::Wednesday, November 17, 2004::05:09 p.m.::

Lt: Why Georgia John Mayer

I am so excited to take a nap right now. After that all nighter, god i am going to get pneumonia. Umm hmmm this layout is pretty, but un-inspiring. Maybe I should find a new one........something interesting. I want to make one.

Honestly, I feel like there is a vendetta against me sometimes. Either everything is great or its not. But life's not black and white...
mmm I feel some existentialism coming on

ah no not right now, I just want sleep. sleep sleep sleep, beautiful sleep. Let's quote Keats:

O soft embalmer of the still midnight,
Shutting, with careful fingers and benign,
Our gloom-pleas'd eyes, embower'd from the light,
Enshaded in forgetfulness divine:
O soothest Sleep! if so it please thee, close
In midst of this thine hymn my willing eyes,
Or wait the "Amen," ere thy poppy throws
Around my bed its lulling charities.
Then save me, or the passed day will shine
Upon my pillow, breeding many woes,--
Save me from curious Conscience, that still lords
Its strength for darkness, burrowing like a mole;
Turn the key deftly in the oiled wards,
And seal the hushed Casket of my Soul.