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TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Sunday, February 23, 2003::
09:57 p.m.
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pretty much
I have to finish my english paper
I was a total shit hole today....blah
long story but pretty much we went to the FI and i had fun at first and then i don't know when.....but all of a sudden i wasn't and i just was being really blah and pissed off because i missed alot of stuff and felt that i was wasting my day there. And i thought a bunch of ppl were mad at me because i wanted to stay and see the lion king with the few free passes courtesy of Isobel's dad being a board member (I also thought one of the reasons why we were going to the FI was to see the lion king....) but they sad that all of us had to go since Rose had to go....which didn't really make sense but w/e Jennie just didn't want Rose to go home alone which is very kind of her but i got a big vibe that she was pissed off at me since i wanted to stay. So that didn't make me feel too hot. And i dunno then i was just like what the hell am i doing here...there's really no point in me being here and i don't think there was ever one from the beginning. I mean i told Rose last night that i wasn't even sure if i was going to go for reasons listed below...then she was liek your gonna bail on me? and tried to explain to her that i wasn't sure what i was doing but me and a few other ppl thought it might be nice to switch it to next sunday. She then says that if I bail, she might have to bail and then who would feel guilty?
Answer?
Me
I would feel guilty like all the other times my friends made me feel guilty if i didn't go hang out with them or do this with them. And this isn't the first time. I understand that i never get to see them, but dragging me to a museum so that a guy can ask her out...I mean it's not like her wedding! I mean i had fun in the beginning but really the whole point of the thing was so Aaron could ask Rose out. So why did i need to be there? I mean it's just like "oh Zoe if you don't go i might not go and then this whole thing will be ruined since it was based on me and Aaron getting together and then how would you feel that you had ruined that?"
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
growl
and i so after i guess everyone decides we are going to go home at 4 with Rose...i have to since i didn't have any money (i have nooo idea where my wallet is! AH!) and i mean there was no point in staying anymore since everyone was leaving because i guess we couldn't see the movie? I dunno i missed out on that part. So we end up just going to the book store and i'm trying to let off steam because i'm just getting bad vibes from everywhere and i just need to cool down. So me and cooling down=getting away from everyone else. I wasn't hiding, i just wasn't with everyone else. I explored the gift shop at my own pace. And then they called my name so i wearily walked up to them and they tried to crack a joke that i had been hiding or something (previously i mentioned to Sarah that if everyone else was going to leave we could hide ^_^) and saying that if i wanted to go home or somethin i would have to go right now....i dunno...i tried to get over it. But i was pretty upset because at that moment it seemed like i had completely wasted my whole day....and i missed doing alot of other things like Rex Storch and seeing Dar Williams live. i mean this could have been totally avoidably if we just changed the date but no....Rose didn't even say yes or no she just said that i was bailing and that i would then ruin the whole entire thing since i was bailing. (Just to mention she told Katie that she had to come too and made Katie feel guilty. )
I just i dunno....I've been stressed or somethin lately and i just feel that this whole entire weekend i've been used just so other ppl can get together and i can just take up space or make them look better or somethin or just so THEY can feel comfortable.
Well what about me? I dunno why i just go with it.. I mean i dunno their my friends so i do favours and shit. I mean i DID have a good time until everyone made me feel bad and then why would u wanna stay? exactly
i love all my friends and i was being totally sullen and probably taking this soooo far out of porportion but its just sometimes there is a line...i mean i was seriously pissed off. I wanted to go at first because i thought it was fun, then i didn't when i realized that the whole thing was centered around rose and aaron and we were just extras or something....and then when i got there i was having fun until i guess everything started to get centered around Aaron and Rose and felt that it wasn't "hanging out with friends" anymore. And i really felt that i should be there...there was no point in me being there and i just got really mad because i gave up a lot of stuff to come here and no one really seemed to appreciate that. I had to come, just to what? Take up space? Make this an excuse for getting to see you this weekend?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
It's just... sometimes i feel that these ppl have their own little way of making you feel really bad about your decisions. And usually about most things that are my decisions i'm pretty firm. But for some reason....i don't know i bend when its with these ppl. Most likely because i don't want to lose them as my friends. Thats the last thing in the world that i want to do is lose them. SO i bend in everypossible way so that i don't have to feel i blew them off and then their pissed. I know they get pissed because i've experienced choosing one thing and then they're "dissapointed" in me, saying that i should have done the other thing and then they get mad at me. Well what about my choices. I just AA SDFO aSDOFkaS:LDFk APEOi rASDOfkA:SLDkfA:LS dkfA:Lsk
I really can't stand it. I don't know why i bend to this. I still can't decide whether i should have goe to FI or not....i mean i had a real blast in the beginning but i mean by the end i was about to start crying because i felt the whole thing was a waste and as i have said a billion times I FELT THAT I DIDN'T NEED TO BE THERE
and don't tell me that i could have just not gone....because that my friend, was not an option. unless of course i was deathly sick or my mom wouldn't let me go. It's like school or somethin...I'd get a detention if i didn't show up for this.
Stuart was acctually really nice at the end, saying that maybe it was "fate" or somethin and that any moment a really hot guy who i liked or somethin would walk down the street and ask me out. Or i escaped a disease at some random place, or someone in the museum thought that i was so beautiful that i should model for their magazine lol that made me happier. then i got to go play snake 2 on seans cell and that made me really happy but then he took it away... :(
just all in all....after now i am having this awesome talk with Katie...I forgive a majority of ppl for their actions today...And I admit I was being a bit unreasonable about some things but come on!!! AHHH! Why do you need a bunch of ppl to go to this when all you want to do is get alone? Oh wait....u feel uncomfortable being together and you crave the attention. Ever since ppl have been gobbling this relationship up because they don'ta nd never had any of their own. They have to feed off of yours, you their young growing up and they live their relationships through yours. Another thing, being uncomfortable with the person you're about to start dating is sortof BS, if you don't feel comfortable with them...shouldn't you get over it? you should spend time alone so you can get comfortable.
the whole trip was full of mixed messages, is this a friend gathering or trying to get rose and aaron together gathering? Is this about hanging out with friends and having a good time or being bored but everything is good since rose and aaron are together?and rose has changed, from all this pampering. And i'm not the only to notice. She wasn't being the bestest of a friend to me @ the party for example... this thing might even be going to her head. It's obvious i'm mad and if she didn't know it then she's gonna know it now. And then she'll be the guilty one.
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whoooi should probably not be putting this one up, but since i have no way of contacting ppl this will have to do
Rose, be expecting a call, nice work on getting your mom to call me to tell me that i left my stuff in ur art portfolio
Jennie, go your messages. Yea i know u were making fun of my away message but not the slickest idea when i'm still not feeling to hot about today. I put it up there to acctually make fun of you lol since you were doing the same thing XP I'm not mad at you anymore i love you and i'll call you. Yes i do admit in a weird way that part of the reason i was sullen was due to my period, stress etc. but there were many other reasons. Maybe because i felt that i had lost alot of friends today, because i was jelouse of rose and Aaron's relationship (but that really isn't why i'm mad at all and i don't really think i'm jelous about that) and perhaps because i felt my friend had changed, the one who alwas told me i was the one who changed. And its just blows over the top.
i'll stop now i've done enough damage
Mind you, i started writing this around 10:00 and its now 11:30 so its been stewing and oppions have been changing the past hours.
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:57 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Saturday, February 22, 2003::
08:02 p.m.
I am on a campaign to change the Franklin Institue trip to next Sunday
I have soooo much stuff to do already this sunday...:
Rex Storch (Which i love to go to! i really don't want to miss it!! I was looking forward!!!)
Dar Williams (one of my fave. Singers!!!!) is going to be performing at our local borders.
Bowling
Foreign Exchange students (ok i don't really want to go to this....but w/e its an excuse to change it)
HW
well my mom's pretty much like...you have to do your hw in the morning and you have to do it after you come back form Franklin Institute.
I was planning on going to Rex Storch in the morning...but then my mom said i could only do one thing AKA FI
AAAH and i have wanted to go to Rex Storch since i saw the sign @ the HS a while ago! It's been in my ass. book (HAHA) for WEEEEEKS!!!! GROWL!
SO COULD WE PLEASE CHANGE IT TO SUNDAY?!?!?!?!?!?!
*Imitates sad puppy dog face*
or what if we went...earlier??? and why do we have to stay so long? GROWL ROSE CALL ME
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::08:02 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Saturday, February 22, 2003::
03:59 p.m.
whooo interesting weekend....
last night, Hannah, Andy and I (hah wow acctual grammar use...) hung out at the KOP mall. I love that place. It's soooo awesome! I mean i'm not a mall rat but this place has everything!!! AND IT IS SOO HUGE!!! And they just opened a VANS store!!!! *squeals* but we didn't stay too long. And they have this really cool store called Hollister...and they support one of my favorite bands! Something Corporate!!!!!! and they have really cute shirts and stuff!! and i love it....because it's owned by abercrombie but they acctually have nice stuff that doesn't have glitter and abercrombie written everywhere on it!! and it's cheaper too!!!! So i am going to go on a shopping craze there sometime....
haha and i got a TAKING BACK SUNDAY shirt! It's cute...then i changed in the middle of the Sam Goody (i think i have a thing about changing in the middle of stores ; )) it was funny, we were just standing there one time...and this big group of guys come up and on guy trued to knock another guy into me or somethin on purpose...but he missed lol and then started yelling at his friend and then i smiled at him lol ^_^ and then Andy was like..."Why the hell did they try to run into Zoë?" and hannah of course replies with the famous phrase:
"BECAUSE SHE HAS BIG BOOBS OK?"
o-_-o
Ooh yea! and there were lots of ppl form Shipley there for some reason....probably because something was cancelled... *cough* battle of the bands *cough cough* and amazingly enough we walk into Hot Topic, and Andy sees some dudes he knows. The walk up and i look up t this guy i've seen in pictures on the internet! (NO they were not porno pics...dirty ppl) He's in Andy's band (Pretzle Helmet)'s rival band, Cereal Heroes. It was sooo weird because as soon as i saw the two guys i was like i've seen you before! and they thought i went to one of their performances of something but i was like no...i've just been to ur website lol. Yea and then as we're coming out of Hollisters we see some girls hwo go to Shipley, some girl Elizabeth who use to go to Baldwin who i swear i know or have seen somewhere...well i've obviosuly seen her but w/e and then SI's sister! haha i'll have to tell Steph that i saw Hannah, She'll just die lol. And Hannah just found out that Steph liked her brother....>< whooops
whoooooo...some people are just really stupid and say and do really stupid things for stupid reasons....
*shakes head*
pooor stupid people...they don't know what stupid stuff they are getting themselves into
laaaaah Moore was fun today besides running throught he pouring rain to get to our train and walking home in the rain to get totally soaked! aHH! I always wear the wrong shoes on the wrong days! I should have worn my oxfords today...and my vans the other days!! *growl*
hmmmm i should start my work....3 latin stories...finish my english paper...french worksheet...phsics lab which ill just put off for a little longer lol....and study for my history test...GROWL
well...2morrow will be fun atleast ^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::03:59 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, February 17, 2003::
11:45 p.m.
Me and Rose, in a late-night hunger frenzy....decide to raid the kitchen
in my school kilts rolled high and fishnets
don't forget the heavy eyeliner and sexy tossed hair
; )
yea. so here's the situation, raiding my fridge in this garb and this conversation starts( because i noticed my dad asleep on the couch):
Me: We look like we just came back from a party or somethin...
Rose: No, we look like we came from a whore house
Me: Yea! Well that's where the party was! (duh)
*takes out mango sorbet*
yes but we are very sad that we were not able to make it to meghan's and Rose is doubly sad because she did not call meghan to tell her this so therefor her guilty consience is making me write it on my blog
WE LOVE YOU MEGHAN AND ALL THOSE PPL BUT WE COULD NOT GET A RIDE!!!!
whoo so me and rose had a fun time dressing up as Punk Rock Princess and Miss Understood lol and perhaps we will post pictues if your lucky ; )
hahahaha
good times good times
on one conditon you have to dress in drag~mike
haha and so now i am Poopsie...the dog
what i get for dressing like this....
god i swear Rose is going to have a heart attack soon....eating this mango sorbet and eating my arm......she is laughing convulsivly...wow its getting scary here folks......
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:45 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Sunday, February 16, 2003::
10:44 p.m.
whooo stuck at home in a blizzard...the most snow this area has seen since the big blizzard of '96 which is still a topic of discussion lol
now they're saying we might get as much as 30"...and the snowfall in the city half an hour ago was already 17" and the storm still has over 15 hours probably to go.
of course this is just enough time to ruin my plans....because the trains to the city will probably be closed because of the weather.
it was awesome though, we slead down swarthmore ave. because it's sortof illeagle to drive in our town at the moment ^^;; so that was a once in a life time chance lol. We should have taken our chance @ Chester Rd. lol
off to bed for me....sleeptimes
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:44 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Sunday, February 16, 2003::
01:41 p.m.
This is an e-mail compliments of my cousin Cady about her reaction to me not sure if i could visit her or not because i am terrified of planes:
Subject: zoeeeeeeeeeee *windows shake frim loud yelling*
Message:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I fly out to see you every fucking summer AND the past 3 years in the winter even though i almost have a nervous breakdown because i am scared of the piolet being stupid. AND YOU ARE TELLING ME THE OPPURTUNITY CAME UP FOR YOU TO COME OUT HERE AND YOU DIDNT TAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!! the next time youhave a chance get your large nunga nungas out here or they will be no use to you because you will be dead.
p.s. trains have a higher fatality percentage than planes. i looked it up.
p.p.s. if you never take a plane you will never go to hawaii..........
I ove her lol
then she sends me proof:
Odds of being killed on a single airline flight
Top 25 airlines with the best records
1 in 7.71 million
true that does make me feel better.
and i didn't have the chance! i mean my mom didn't really even ask me....well sortof i dunno but my aunt Lisa (Cad's mom) asked if my mom was gonna bring me and my mom then said probably not and now isn't even sure if she's going herself!!!!
Spring Break though...I'm gonna be there! And this summer.....Surf camp! lol and Hawaii!!!!!! *sigh*
ugh not a brilliant move to tell my mother about my assignments coming up....she is about to force my into unnessecary action >-< ah.....not cool not cool
yay! Now it seems like i might be able to get out of the house! it soooo farking cold out!!!
I want Liia's buddy icon....its a badass-buddy icon callled:"Kill Avril", where there's a drawing of avril and then a bomb blows up
tres amusante
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::01:41 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Saturday, February 15, 2003::
08:39 p.m.
lalala i am off looking for a new template because i'm getting very bored of this one. lalala
THE CONCERT WAS AWESOME!!!! and so was the party!!! lol me and Katie tucked away in our back corners. I wasn't in the best mood at the end of the night cuz i tstill wasn't feeling well among other things.
whoo and Moore was cancelled but i dunno if i would have gone anyways because i was feeeeling soooooo queasy this morning..and now my sis has the flu and i dunno where i am in it and i can barely get some rest because i can't breath becuase i am soooo clogged!!! AHHHHHH!! and it hurts to blow my nose because my nose is really dry from meds and its not fun ><
whooo so my sick day book is now Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire lol. yea...pretty much.
and Pac Sun stores are having these great deals. I got this really cute DC shirt and a Billabong sweater, buy one get one free! So it was only 30 dollars (the sweater was the most expensive) but yea i really wanted the shirt and the sweaters really cute. I had fun there lol...it was V-Day i went, w/ my mom lol and i think my shirt might have drawn some more attention than needed to a certain area....(think Georgia lol)
this is cake to make my day (???):
I have a french composition and a lab report due tuesday...WHICH I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT!
*steams* and my english paper is due thursday and i don't have idea what the hell its about!
ok being sick and missing school WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA!!!!! >< not fair!!! Ahh i mean Cheese won't care if i turn it in late....Madame....ugh....don't even want to think about it and i'll just talk to Ms. Weaver. AH GABBY WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TELL ME THIS NOW!!! *cries*
how come my cousin gets gorgeous senior guys to come to her mock trial meetings and have them take off their pants?!?!?! and then puts on girl jeans which he can only get like.....half on and then he's wearing a really tight t-shirt??
WHY CAN'T I MOVE TO THE WEST COAST!!!
and you know....i have my chance of visiting there (but i would have to take a plane...i loath planes) but my mom isn't sure if she's going anymore! AHH!
I've decided that i'm going to go take a train across the US and go visit my cousin in Cali over Spring Break
Hottness and a half
XP
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::08:39 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Thursday, February 13, 2003::
11:41 p.m.
wow....
i was reading over these old aim convos and i realized HOW STUPID I AM
i have, recorded conversations of my stupidity, my chances i had at acctually havinga relationship with a guy i liked..then i was so oblivious to this i acted like an idiot when the time came, when they practically TOLD ME they liked me and practically ASKED ME if i liked them!
and what do I say?
Oh no one...
yea thats a way to get a guy to ask you out... *slaps forhead* and i mean looking back on it i seriously regret it...I AM SOOO STUPID!!
ok to guys out there, please excuse my stupidity.
if you probably asked me who i liked or was interested in and i said, oh no one really...or anything along those lines I WAS BEING STUPID BECAUSE I REALLY LIKED YOU BUT WAS AFRAID TO TELL YOU!
Maybe i should be nice and go tell people that....but it might be too late....ARRRRRRRRG! I am cursed with stupidity about love
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i'll just inform those guys in the morning...
11:46.....14 minutes to Valentines day but who's counting?
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:41 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Thursday, February 13, 2003::
11:15 p.m.
i dislike....Boys who think that if a girl is with another guy, that other guy must be her boyfriend. So then concludes that he should not even try to get to know her. Even though she really wants to get to know him...but she realizes her mistake too late...and then it seems to be hopeless
but ah!
there is a light! GROWL! Why do guys have to be soo stupid and assume?!!? To assume makes an ASS out of U and ME
-KP
*angry whine*
CRUEL CRUEL WORLD THAT HAS SUCH TORTURES!
blah before i say anymore nite nite
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:15 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Thursday, February 13, 2003::
10:15 p.m.
HAPPY EVE OF VALENTINES DAY FROM YOUR SICK FRIEND WHO DOESN'T HAVE ANY CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP IN HER ENTIRE HOUSE SO IS TOLD TO MAKE CHICKEN RAMEN WHICH DOES NOT TASTE AT ALL THE SAME!
*contemplates*
how come i have boyfriends but never seem to have one around valentines day?
*kills 10 yo sister, who gets two yes TWO stuffed animals and a solid giant chocolate heart, a necklace w/ changable charms and lots of candy from her bf (they are both in 5th grade)*
*contemplates yet again...*
and how come we NEVER HAVE CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP WHEN I'M SICK!? It's like their is some CURSE on me or somethin!
have you ever watched that show "Are you hot?" or somethin? Where random people in bathing suits come out and people judge them on, face, body and sexuality??
HAHAHAHA
there were some really hott guys on that show...except one was sooo cute but he got kinda cocky w/ the judges so he didn't make the final round.
This epidemic has its upsides i found out today...
first, our English test on the ancient Greek Tradgedy Medea was cancelled. (search that under images on google, and click on the scary picture of the woman in agony with blood all over her!) and our history test that was going to be tuesday was moved to thursday!! Soo many people have been sick....
I HAVE A FOUR DAY WEEKEND!
*mentally jumps up and down*
I hate being a stupid coward sometimes....like i'll be agonizing over my non-existent love life and my mom will be like: " Well why don't you ask out some random guy you met at the ski trip or at the dance or somethin" and i'll say, "Well...you see they probably have know clue who i am...how they would know me...and then get a strange sudden feeling that i'm stalking them"
Mom: "No! Just go call them or im him or w/e you do."
10 yo sister: "Yea Zoë! Be brave like me and write them a note or somethin asking them out. that's what i did *dreamy glazed donut look*"
Me: *disgusted look* "It's a bit hard to write them a note in class asking this considering that i am
A) not in the same grade as he is
B) not in the same school as he is
"
I dunno....now it all seems like stupid excuses...but i just sit there thinking "Was i exagerating about how close i was with these guys? I mean all i think i did was give them 10+ hour massages in 7th grade, and hang out w/ them in a sauna for 5+ hours this year and get pelted at with ice on the ride back. Or just stare at them.....(diff. them)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
I'm only going to keep this up for a bit...then i will tear it down (atleast that part of the entry) I'm embarrasing my self so much ><
Hey! My fortune cookie i had last night said something about that!
*bangs head on desk*
I think the sickness is giving me funny thoughts....
Or it's just "Zoë being normal" weird mood times...we all know those *flings away akward memories*
*whiny voice*
"Matt, what does a boner feel like?"
wow this is just a self abuse/embarressing entry today isn't?
this isn't normal...it's the sickness
please disregard everything..or just forget about it all after you had a good laugh ^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:15 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Wednesday, February 12, 2003::
03:07 p.m.
it was innevitable...
I'M SICK!
like everyone else in a 80 mile radius.....><
and it's probably grown by now. I mean they started closing schools because soo many people are sick! They needed extra help in the nurses office because so many people were calling in sick today! AHH! I mean if you look @ Erica's and Katie's blogs they're also sick....and my mom was sick and my friends are sick and i mean i was going to get sick sooner or later! I mean 40 people were absent in our middle school yesterday. They're are only roughly 150 ppl in the entire middle school!
so everyone is miserable and sick....
and
Valentines Day is coming up
which no one is looking forward to....except a 4 day weekend and possible a social life (if the sickness ever ends!)
but.....I'M NO LONGER HAVING A ENLISH TEST ON MEDEA!!! Which doesn't really bother me...but its like soo many people in our class have been sick. there were 5 or 6 people in our class absent yesterday...and there aren't many people in our class. And today, i already know of 3 people including me who weren't in school....and i can imagine there were more.
icky icky icky sick with the icky ick icky flu....
I'm gonna go make myself some chicken noodle soup or somethin....
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::03:07 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, February 10, 2003::
10:28 p.m.
haha I love how people think that this girl is me (the girl in the picture...the blog is my friend Nicole's.)
*sigh*
I wish!
i need to grow up....i am starting to hate guy friends (not really)....because i'm starting realize that guys aren't really attracted to a girl, if she is hanging out w/ her guy friend in the back of the bus (which is considered purpling?) So the guy who was attracted to the girl before is no longer....since he thinks the girl and the guy friend are more than that which they certainly aren't but the other guy interpereted it that way....since he assumed if a guy and a girl are hanging out they must be more than friends
that was my lovely little rant on why guys should still like me....because there's a big chance that the guy you see me hanging out with is only a friend so don't let that disscourage you!!! I am such a damn coward...and i know you like me...or you did.
stupid friends always messup my relationships
ok take that last statement back
i mean its true...but i love my friends alot.....
now i know that i shouldn't appear to be i dunno "fooling around" with a guy friend...(WHEN IT'S NOT EVEN THAT!!!!!! we were hanging out! i mean..we were lying on a three person seat together! AH ITS NOTHING! JUST FRIENDS ) and of course at that exact moment the guy who you happened to notice since he was looking at you and oh god was he gorgey and you still think he is...well heaven forbid that his best friend just needed to use the bus toilet and he gets back there and looks at me in "horror" and then reports back to his friend that..I sadly am in a relationship???
NOOOOOOOO!!!!!
growl.
it is NOT SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN THIS WAY!
well....i mean it's not liek i won't ever see him again....considering i did the other day. ^_^
I was on the bus...and i look out the window and i see this guy...who looks framiliar and we keep looking at eachother unti the bus turns the corner.
*slaps head*
stupid me...><
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:28 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, February 10, 2003::
10:15 a.m.
HAPPY BANNER DAY!!!!!
whoooo i have tons of yurrrrmy red candy with me now..in the computer lab...during french.
I'm soo happy because me and GAbby got an extension on our project because she's sick today and i didn't get any of the things she e-mailed me!!! AH!
Whoo...exciting weekend! lol
friday we had a SNOW DAY!! And i went sleading w/ the partial ace gang (JennSarah&Isobel, Jennie, Rose, Meghan, Katie, and Erica) then we watched Will and Grace....then We made dinner for ourselves @ Isobel's!! It was soo much fun! I was the customer because i'm going to marry some rich guy from the mainline since i go to school there (being sarcastic), Katie was the press since she is always taking pictures, Erica was the waitress since she was bringing everything out, Isobel was the host since it was her house, Jenn and Sarah were the entertainers lol, Jennie was MASTER CHEF! And Rose and Meghan were "bus boys" lol since they set the table and made appetizers? lol read Jennie's blog for more ^_^
Then we watched Chocolate!! I AM SOOOO GOING TO MARRY JOHNNY DEPP! haha you should have heard me SQUEALING every scene he was in! AHHHHHH XPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
Whoo he and Orlando Blooooooooom are going to be in that Pirates of the Carribean Movie or somethin! *droool*
Yea and Saturday was the AIS dance...i wore fishnets and rolled up my lucky jeans and wore a white wife beater over my pretty new TH bra that i just got @ Strawbridges because i was in dier need of some...lol they're soooo cute! (Because i know you all want to know that i went bra shopping lol)
sunday i was lazy...but i got really far in KH! Whoo can't wait wait wait!!!
Ahhhh once again i am screwed for Friday and its the SAME EXACT PREDICAMENT AGAIN!!!
Jeffrey Gains concert, "Pitty Party", and V-Day Party.
The V-Day party is hopefully going to be moved to SATURDAY!! *whippeeeee!* But you see...the people i asked to the concert are like..."But what about the 'Pitty Party'"? AAAAAH!!!!!!!! Why do almost the EXACT SAME THING WE DO EVERY WEEKEND!?!? But just give it a name and maybe make a cake?? THIS IS JEFFREY GAINS IN CONCERT AND ITS FARKING SPECIAL SINCE WE SORTOF PREFORMED WITH HIM LAST YEAR!!!!
*huff puff huff puff*
GROWL!
and thats my lurvely rant ^_^
off to play family feud!
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:15 a.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Tuesday, February 4, 2003::
10:39 p.m.
Lt: Stupid Bastard by Brodie
this is a bit random but....tonight when i was at the Co-op i saw Jack there....i was just thinking the other day how i haven't seen him since...i dunno like forever.....maybe even the first time i visited SHHS because he wasn't at the New Years Eve Party....and i didn't see him when i visited SHHS the second time. Wait.,...but when i tried to get in the 3rd time but they kciked me out i saw him...sortof he walked past the office but he didn't see me...
It was weird he didn't really look like himself...
maybe he got a haircut
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:39 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Tuesday, February 4, 2003::
10:26 p.m.
Lt: The One by Brodie
Wow......So i went on the dinky classmates site...you know the one with the add of all the yearbook pictures plastered on pretty much every site?
Well its weird cuz i look at the classmates....and i still have my yearbook from 4th grade and i look at these peopls names and look them up in the yearbook!
and you will never guess who signed up.
ZACH MCMASTER!
i only sortof liked him for ALL OF ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! And i *think* that he liked me in 4th grade....hmm..memories. We split the role of Beehtoven in "Beehtoven's bookworms"...
wow i wish i could e-mail him...i mean it's been 5 whole farking years since i've seen him!
Wonder how much he's changed.....:-/?
aaaaaah DANCE IS OVER THIS FRIDAY!
*shouts of joy*
but i am still in difficult situation...
Punks or Preps?
this shouldn't be difficult now....Well one has guaranteed guys (AKA they are invited) the other has guaranteed guys in bands....i was planning on going to the concert first and i do REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go! (And no Andy, PH Won't suck!) plus there are gonna be 4 other bands playing....and there should be guys there too.
But i would also like to go to Mikes....expecially now since he just pulled a guilty trick on me...and complementing me and shit to make me go....then automatically replacing me with someone...."boy do i feel mighty special now"
Well....Punk...then maybe Prep?
OH well....I told you to make it saturday. It's just "everyone who planned the party and who wanted me to go" 's fault....because i told them to make it saturday.
their loss!
but....
I sitll might show up!
*stares off at lava lamp*
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:26 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, February 3, 2003::
09:56 p.m.
YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!
Happy Physics day for Zoe!!
lol, well u see I got a B+ on a impossibly hard physics test! And it might (knock on wood) be raised to a A- or an A!!!! lol because all of the reasons listed on the front of our blue book (now almost purple from all my writing) of death lol. And mine and Maria's bridge was the best from Baldwin...but we dont' know how it did against the rest.
martices are fun lol
boy am i in a delimma for this friday lol...not really...well i'll be able to figure something out...
ooh and something unusual happened today...a very good looking highschool guy was sitting in residence today when we were practicing dance ^_^
haha so Rose says i am forced to go to Strath Haven's frosh formal...which i would obviously have to go to with some frosh male from SHHS....>< I feel so much like that girl from Bye Bye Birdie Kim or somethin...Older men are the way to go! haha XP
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:56 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Sunday, February 2, 2003::
09:12 p.m.
whoo fun weekend *laughs* nah it was ok...
watched Amelie w/ ace gang (sortof) on friday...saturday woke up early, went to Koffe Korner in Media w/ Maria...then went to the Physics Olympics @ Penncrest!
It was acctually pretty cool....not to mention all the cute guys! And our bridge did really well! (i hope!) *knocks on wood* It was funny...people were talking about us (Maria and I) cuz we went to Baldiwn..and Baldwin has this sortof "reputation" there for good bridges. And it was great, because as we were watching our bridge the people infront of us were making all these nice comments about our bridge and how it was gonna do well and stuff.
then we walked to Granite Run mall....that was a fun little walk lol....and had some fun romping around
Then i saw Chicago w/ Rose...went to Isobel's to help out w/ Beatrices birthday party >< but we had fun
yea the whole Mixer thing really didn't work out ad don't say ANYTHING about it to me
except....
When's the next one??
BECAUSE U ALL BETTER BE GOING!
whoooo....yea
Oh my goosh though.....A KRISPY KREME OPENED REALLY NEAR TO US!!! And i have had like 4 donuts already!!! And a starbucks is opening! and i think a Charlotte Russe is opening @ Springfield!!!! Cady will be happy lol SEE I'M NOT DEPRIVED!!! haha
whooo....i NEED a cd burner so if you wanna be nice.....lol and i also NEED a new layout!! Badly!! I mean i've made some.,....maybe if someone can help me w/ the technical stuff....
I lurve the YG newsletter lol
nite nite y'all ; )
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:12 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Thursday, January 30, 2003::
06:36 p.m.
Ah random rant:
even though exams are over i am still so farking pissed because i have a latin project (which i can HOPEFULLY get an extension on!) and a physics bridge due 2morrow! (edit: i lurve Maria since she is taking care of it ^_^) I also have a stoopid farking dance assembly for lower school 2morrow, and i get my exams back and i have annoying Advising!
On the bright side:
I'm now the girlfriend of a sex god
whooo i wish! Anywhoo...no the positive side is, is that it's friday...and out-of-uniform-day and the weekend!!!
BUT I AM MAD!!!! Becuase now absolutely NO ONE IS GOING TO THE FARKING MIXER THAT I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO TO!!! I mean, well Maria was going to go with me but now...i dunno! And Mike isn't going but Eva might go and now there is some random get-togethe but i really want to go to the mixer becuase i haven't been to anything liek that in the longest time!!!!
(dude i just typed all of that at like a milllion words per second!!!!)
AHHHHHHHHH
but...we might go skiing/snowboarding on sunday....and there's meghans recital and YG.....DAMN ALL OF THIS!
*ROOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR*
*huff puff*
cruel world.....
stupid moral/age restrictions in the dating laws....and now stoopid no-one-wants-to-go-to-the-prep-mixer-so-what-is-Zoe-going-to-do-about-getting-a-relationship? She knows no one on the farking main line...the guy she likes she will most likely never-ever see again becuase:
A) He is a senior
B) He Goes to Strath Haven
C) He most likely never goes to YG even though he went on the farking ski trip
now i think i am blaming my whole problem on someone becuase i think when the "person mentioned before"'s friend went to the bathroom on the bus he saw me in the back with my friend...and mostlikely then we were probably laying on eachother or somethin becuase we're just close friends...and he probably told "person mentioned before" about this....and also the fact that hte majority of people i was hanging out with were lower classmen, therefor coming to the conclusion that i must also be a lowerclassman. Thus, deciding that it would not be the best idea to have a relationship or even a fling with me.....(i think i also heard something about him once hooking up w/ a 6th grader....some haunted memories or somethin ?_?) But i am not a 6th grader.....and this has happened way toooo many times. I can't help if i look 2 years older than i am!! What's the diff?? I mean... why do guys get turned off by this? Seniors date frosh girls all the time! If your interested in a girl it shouldn't matter if she is 17 or 14 or w/e......*starts foaming at the mouth* this is cruelty to girls-who-look-like-their-older-so-therefor-attract-many-guys-of-many-ages
i mean....i dunno....and u see lately or forever i have been a very picky girl...and i might become interested in someone slightly....yet if they start becoming interested in me i just....don't like them anymore! I dunno....but i remember thinking to mysel, "Zoe, you can't stop likeing this guy. I forbid you too...he seems to great to let down..and he seems like a keeper" yadda yadda yes i know i was talking to myself but w/e. But u get the picture. i made myself promise not to sop likeing him....and now i'm stuck likeing him. Well not stuck...just upset becuase there is a mondo big chance that i'll never get anywhere w/ this and its really upsetting..
Its not liek some crush on a older senior guy who u absolutely know you'll never have a chance with... I mean i noticed him because he kept on looking at me! and making eye-contact!!!
*cries*
IT'S NOT FAIR! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS???
*growl*
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::06:36 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Tuesday, January 28, 2003::
09:59 p.m.
THAT'S IT!!!!
I'm finished!!!! With my exams!!! ^_^_^_^_^_^
happy happy Zoë who is going to go to bed now!
NITE NITE
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:59 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, January 27, 2003::
06:02 p.m.
AAAAAAAAAAH
I AM FINISHED WITH MY PHYSICS EXAM!!!!
and it wasn't that horrible!!! ^_^
Oh yea and i had my english today too...
It was great fun...after the physics exam me and maria rushed outside to the soccer feild, because this big sploth of it had been frozen over so it was like our own mini ice-skating rink!!! We had went before the physics exam too...so much fun! As Maria says: "Times like these make you want to stay at Baldwin" lol true true.
And i was stripping all over the place XP
because i had a bazillion layers on...and it was FREEEEZING outside but really really warm inside!! I was sweating up a storm during english!!
ok....all i have to say about the superbowl is:
HOW DID THE RAIDERS LOSE?!!? THIS IS SO NOT COOL! (well obviously...) I loath the buckaneers now because they beat our Eagles then they have to go and win the superbowl....>< haha this senior has liked the bucks forever and when they beat the eagles, he was all happy and everyone was dissing him since of course most ppl here are Eagles fans...
Whoo and saturday was the Paoli Party...haha i was really mad in the beginning that i got dragged there since there was population of liek 10 people, half of them my friends >< yea but some more ppl came...then the actual decent guys left!!! ;-; ah well.....what can u expect? But i did end up having some fun...playing basketball, tackling 3 people at a time...putting my hot orange thong, that was like silvery/glittery like snake skin lol in the front, and its like a string one and at the cross in the back there are these silver lips! and i put them over my pants....lol i got some looks there lol. It was good fun.....sortof....then the lady with her fur coat and burberry bag got all huffity-puffity w/ me and matt when we were waiting outside and got all pissy because my dad was 10 minutes late >< geeeeeze!
Well....i am off to go study Algebra! JOY! whooo whooo last exam for Zoë!!! Then all she needs is to finish her latin and physics prjects and she's done!!! Yay...then she gets the grades back on friday....and thats probably the last you'll ever see of Ms. Gorgey Zoë ever again....
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::06:02 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Saturday, January 25, 2003::
04:59 p.m.
AAHHH!
I finished my french and history exams!!!!! ^_^
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!
now i don't need to think about them for a week!
except we get the grades back next friday.....><
but i have a lower school dance assembly thing!
><
whooo so Paoli Party tonight...
whoo whoo
I'm blazing with excitement as you can see....
and am obviously extremely sarcastic ^^
Does anyone even go to one of these things?
atleast it's "Bring a friend night"...so there might be more then .003 guys for each girl lol.
WHOo SHHS better be ready on wednesday! haha
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::04:59 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Wednesday, January 22, 2003::
07:29 p.m.
CRAMPS
icky ick icky cramps......><
I am in MAJOR PAIN!
and all i wanna do is go to the healthplex and sit in the hot tub because i am also still pretty sore from my tumbling on sunday lol
ahhh Stowe was sooo much fun! Wow that was the best time i've had in a while....^_^ i have to go visit SHHS sometimes really really soon! I miss seeing my friends! Pluss i have 2 days off next week!!! and i have 2morrow off!! Any one wanna meet me @ Renatos? I think i might go and have lunch there lol
it was soo freaky (and sortof funny lol) @ around 5 today during dance the power just kindof went off in the Residence building. We went on with practice cuz we had the emergency lights but then some of those went off like 15 minutes later. 5 minutes after that the alarm goes off so we all grab our coats and rush outside and stand out there, then they tell us we can go inside to the "pit" the space at the bottom of the stairs. WE sit down there while the alarm goes droaning on and on....forever....
then Ms. Renee calls off practice and we all go upstairs to get all our bags when this paranoid lady yells to us (the alarm is still going on) that the police and the fire department want everyone out of the building. So we all rush to get our stuff 2gether...then run outside. haha so we drop our bags under this tree, and we stand our there huddled together because its sooo farking cold. Then Jordan has a brilliant idea and brings her mini red convertable around and we all climb in. and i miean we ALL climbed in. We had a record of 9 people!!! It was soo funny, because when my mom came, 5 ppl had to get out before me, so it looked like one of those circus cars!!! ^_^
Ziggy 1310 (7:32 PM): .it was soo funny
Ziggy 1310 (7:32 PM): after you left Jordan pulled her call around and we fit 9 ppl into her little convertable!
icecow2048 (7:32 PM): haha i saw that, kinda
Ziggy 1310 (7:32 PM): haha
icecow2048 (7:32 PM): there were like legs on the dashboard
Ziggy 1310 (7:32 PM): uit was great when my mom came
Ziggy 1310 (7:33 PM): because i was in the middle in the back squished
Ziggy 1310 (7:33 PM): so like 5 ppl had to come out before me
Ziggy 1310 (7:33 PM): .and it looked liek one of those circus cars
Ziggy 1310 (7:33 PM): yea those were Anne's legs lol
icecow2048 (7:33 PM): lol
icecow2048 (7:34 PM): sounds like a good time!
Mine and Becky's convo lol
Well... i am off to go do some more studying and try to kill these cramps!! Sooooooooooo you could call me....you know if you wanna have a study party or something 2morrow lol.
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::07:29 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, January 20, 2003::
07:17 p.m.
3 words:
STOWE WAS AWESOME!!!!!
I had the BEST TIME!!! not only did I do some awesome skiing, I learned how to snowboard! (sortof)
AND I ONLY WALKED ATLEAST A MILE (or less) DOWN TOLL ROAD!!!
you see, the second day me and Matt traded in our skis for some boards...and decided to not take lessons even though this was my first time and he had only done it once some 3 years ago.
So I mastered the magic carpet hill right away...but when i got to the "not-much-of-a-bunny-hill" i had some trouble....trying falling every three seconds!!! hehe but i sortof got the hang of it....again for never having a lesson lol.
Well i will have to tell the rest later....because I must go finish a math review sheet, finish writing my history outline, make a list of all my french vocab and a summarization of the culture for each chapter, and practice my french grammar.
MY HISTORY AND FRENCH EXAMS ARE ON FRIDAY!!!
I really wanna visit SHHS now...^_^
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO GOD DAMN YOUNG??
And why can't a senior date a frosh respectively?
I loath age restrictions....i mean it's their morals i guess but love should have no boundries!
Ok i'll shut up now....^_^
AAAAAAAAH NOT FAIR
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::07:17 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Wednesday, January 15, 2003::
11:35 p.m.
I ALMOST FORGOT!!!
When I went to Buckman's I saw that guy again!! The one i saw the tuesday or something before winter break!!!! Haha just go down to archives or something and read that entry..it was really funnny.
Yea but he asked me again if i needed help!!! ^_^
*sigh*
his hair got longer.....hmmmmm
XP
and we did sort of have a conversation! Well...saying that i was trying to choose between a hat and then he laughed because my mom said no we didn't need any help (I think i needed some help from him....^_^)
*cough*
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:35 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Wednesday, January 15, 2003::
11:23 p.m.
whooo still have nooo idea what the hell is happening w/ friday.....i feel like 2morrow is friday almost!! AHH MY WEEK HAS BEEN SCREWY~! I have noo idea why i feel we are a day behind....:-/
yea so after dance today my mommy took me to Buckman's ski shop to get new long underwear on the bottoms. And i also got a new coat!! It's Rossingal and its green ^_^ like dark.....i really would have preffered another colour but this was a really nice coat and on sale for like because no one bought it (probably cuz the colour) but i think it looks pretty nice on me! And now i won't have matching stupid ski pants and jacket. Yea...and my ski pants are getting small on me to. I wear them around my waist or else they flood!
whoo my house is shaking!!! ^^;;; my dryer probably.... i needed to wash like a billion pairs of undies and a few shirts for this trip!!!
it was really great, so i was talking to Steph about our latin project plans tomorrow...then she starts saying that i should bring an extra pair of clothes w/ me and that they can pack my lunch and i'm thinking "what the hell is she talking about?" and i was like...Steph....am i sleeping over or something? and she told me that my mom said i was....?_? yea i was in the dark just a bit
whoo i am using pretty pink italics alot!!! and we are only doing two dances so i think they can spare me....its really almost a total waste of time for me to come and i have to get soo much stuff ready, like my tolietries and stuff i want on the bus....etc. etc.
yea...so Cara and Jen w/e are going on this??
WTF!!?!?!?!?
not fair.....
if i get roomed w/ them.....
*huff puff*
calm down now
HAHA
I really should poste this skit i wrote between a "Athens Man" and a "Sparta Man" discussing the American government....i totally sucked up in it and put bunches of stuff we had in notes...then i tired to dig up last years memories of American Gvt. which was scary....images of Soc. w/ Mr. James! It was fun...Social Studies 1st period! Me, Rose, Isobel, Jack, Matt....and like 21 more ppl. Thats like almost have of my grade now. hahaha
Well its getting late and i acctually have school 2morrow!!!
HOPE EVERYONE @ SHHS DID WELL ON THEIR FINALS!!! XDDDDDD
NITE!~!
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:23 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Wednesday, January 15, 2003::
08:48 a.m.
WOAH! so i have A block free today....so i am here in the library and i do this little "Colorgenics Quiz" to tell my emotions and stuff right now...and it was really right it waas freaky!!!
You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.
You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.
AHH! Thats totally true right now!! the part about things not going according to plan...*cough* stupid service day and ski conflict *cough cough* and that making my extremely irritable and difficult to live with (just ask my mommy ^^;;)
hmm that rael thing looks pretty cool acctually....hmmm
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::08:48 a.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Tuesday, January 14, 2003::
10:04 p.m.
MY INTERNET HAS RETURNED!!! ^_^_^_^_^
OMG I AM SOOO FARKING MAD!!!
well i acctually calmed down alot since then but.....
ok so SKI TRIP THIS WEEKEND!!And i was planning on missing stooping service day where we have to go dance and sing etc perform for some ppl in a nursing home. But now....telling my dance coach i have to miss it she gets all scarily quiet and pissy....it was really scary...since she didn't say anything. Then she hated me for the rest of practice just like Maria said she would ....sadly enough...but i am in the jazz! Ugh and just as my mom comes in my sub-conscience gets really screwy and i dunno i can't remember the dance and do horrible! I mean she was liek Zoe look up! yadda yadda...yea so i'm pissed because she pretty much said i had to farking come to service day which would just be a shit in my cereal because i was planning on taking the day off since i really didn't need to go and its just a waste and a mondo stress for me because if i have to go and do some freaky deaky performance for some old people....then be all icky and sweaty and have to sit on a farking bus for 10 hours! I DO NOT THINK SO! I would like a decnet shower or a clothes change atleast!
THIS IS MONDO TORCHER!! AHHH!!! CRUEL CRUEL WORLD WHY DO U HAVE TO MAKE IT SO DIFFICULT FOR ME AND MY SKI TRIP TO BE IN HARMONY WITH EACH OTHER!?!?
*huff puff huff puff* AND BLOW AWAY THE STOOPID DANCE COACH!! And i love how Jordan chimes in: "Well it's mandatory" and a stick up her ass too. Don't hate me just because i get to go to Stowe and ski for a weekend with like 30 some major hott guys! and be on a 10 hour bus ride....with them...
*goes off into dream mode*
la...have you ever had someone you didn't know keep on popping back into your head? Or dreams?
because this guy...who i don't know from real life has randomly appeared in my dreams....tehe and its like when your with them in your dreams you get this feeling of realy love and contentment because you know you both love eachother and everything will be ok when your near yadda yadda you all know how it goes ^_^ teehe my guy..i don't know his name...but hes built-ish...i mean hes not like Mr. Univers but he does have a nicely chisled body...nice stomache and strong arms ^_^ and dark brown curly-ish hair. Dude almost any guy with that kindof hair makes me go weak. The darker the better but no pale Italian dark kindof thing. Whoo so now everyone knows my guy preference!!
You know what would be cool?
If some guy just was walking up the street and he was like, (though he would have to be singing) *sings* "I know you I walked with you once upon a dream...I know you the gleam in your eyes is such a framiliar gleam...and i know its you because dreams are seldom what they seem..."
How much more romantic could you get??
then he would sweep me into his arms and we would kiss and everything from then on would be perfect....
and Happily Ever After
*sigh*
^_^
I think i'll end here in good thoughts
WHOOOO I CAN NOT WAIT TO GO SKIING!!!!!!!
XDDDDDDDD
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:04 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Tuesday, January 14, 2003::
10:04 p.m.
MY INTERNET HAS RETURNED!!! ^_^_^_^_^
OMG I AM SOOO FARKING MAD!!!
well i acctually calmed down alot since then but.....
ok so SKI TRIP THIS WEEKEND!!And i was planning on missing stooping service day where we have to go dance and sing etc perform for some ppl in a nursing home. But now....telling my dance coach i have to miss it she gets all scarily
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:04 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
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::Monday, January 13, 2003::
03:10 p.m.
Lt: to Maria and Eva making their "war ship" for Latin...><
whoooo yes i am at school! Because i don't have the internet at my house....for some reason. Acctually my comp has been getting really really screwy and i want a laptop again.
this is going to be a hella hectic month! (LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE MADE ME DO MS.CADY!!!)
Exams are coming up in 2 weeks! whoo...and we have our Lurvely latin project and now our even better bridge project which i am doing w/ Maria for physics which is due the same day as the latin one which is the 31st of January...only 2 days after we finish our Exams!!!
But its kinda nice because we MLK off...then 2 days of review...then the day off before exams for studying....friday is our first exam then the weekend then two more exam days, then exam makeup day on wednesday which we don't really have to come to unless we missed an exam...and then we also have thursday off because its when the teachers get to grade everything! JOY
AND THE SKI TRIP IS THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!
and i get to miss service day!!! For a 10 hour bus ride w/ really hott highschool boys and we're going to STOWE!!!! I haven't been to Stowe yet and i am mondo excited because it is the largest mountain on the eastcoast.
("Twice the size of any Pochono Mountains" was what it said on the papers!!) Whoo but i've been to killington so its all good stuff!
I CAN NOT WAIT!!!!
Plus I get to hang out w/ all my friends i NEVER EVER SEE!!!
hm...what else....nothin really! OH shoot....i have to call Emily K!o whee and find my script...shite....><
whooo i'm gonna go on aim express and see if anyone is on...?_?
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::03:10 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Thursday, January 9, 2003::
09:59 p.m.
my emotions at the moment?
2 words:
PISSED OFF!!!
*steams* I AM SOOO FARKING MAD RIGHT NOW!!!!
first off... i couldn't go to the var cool concert i wanted to go to avec Hanns and Page...and was forced instead to listen to out of tune cellos being played by elementary school children in my sisters concert!! my sister did a good job singing though and i got to hang out and have fun w/ Isobel and Katie.
BUT MY MOM SAID I COULD GO AND I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANTED TO AND THEN THE STUPID CONCERT ENDED SO FARKING LATE THAT I COULDN'T GO TO THE OTHER ONE!
And my mom has still not payed Kat back!! She keeps on making excuses one after the other...i mean we aren't doing to hot finacially now but when she goes off and buys liek 0 boots which should go to paying back both Rae and Kat...now that just pisses me off. I am really really really pissed about that.
And now i have a farking french vocab quiz 2morrow and FARKING DANCE which i usually loath the death and i think we shouldn't have it on fridays because we get out early on fridays but i ruins the purpose because we have FARKING DANCE!!!
and i have to translate 18 farking lines of latin ><
and then we had a lovely little reminder in math of something unspeakable in my language.....which i of course fell deathly silent at the utter of the first few words.
and to top it all off i believe that my sister has a much better love life than i do
AND MY SISTER JUST TURNED FARKING 11 YEARS OLD ON MONDAY!!!!
*steam pours out of nostrils and ears*
weird imagery but w/e.
and i have to come up w/ a stupid topic for english
*dies*
UGH I HATE THIS
and exams are in less than 3 weeks! ^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:59 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Monday, January 6, 2003::
09:43 p.m.
ok to everyone who read that...thats my little upset rant of the moment.....i dunno its just the assembly seeing ppl from SHHS brought it on....and just talking to ppl i now never see but only talk to online.
Don't get yourself all worried or anything over me because i am in fine mental health condition *thank you very much* and am not clinically depressed and i don't normally act like i'm on the verge of tears (acctually you should all no that i am usually QUITE the opposite!) its just i didn't see as much of ppl as i wanted to this winter break...and i feel i have really taken somethings for quite the advantage.
I really need to go hook up w/ some random main line guy.....well atleast there is a good chance he's wealthy! >< ugh bad thoughts bad thoughts......Jimmy should have some decent friends....and what about Sean? Or maybe i can call up that cutie from Yale....or..or the guy from upper darby!!! ^_^ whoooooooo here comes one of "Zoë's cute guy rants!" *sigh* well it's a good sign that i am sane again!
whooo its getting late-ish.......
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:43 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Monday, January 6, 2003::
09:15 p.m.
Dude
I know someone who is in the Yale Alleycats!!!
How cool is that???
teheh the guy w/ the brown curly hair afro thing was really cute ^_^ that was the BEST assembly ever!! i really want their cd!!!
but it makes me sad becuase you know he went to Strath Haven....and he's friends w/ people i know and stuff...so i was thinking about all my buddies over there and how much i miss them and how i am a very stupid person. T_T but i mean baldwin does have its good points! I mean its not like i'm friendless or somethin...not at all! and i'm getting good grades...
It's just not the same w/ out my SH buddies....
I am sad now -_- i want my friends T_T all of them...even ones who i sometimes can not stand....they are still very dear to me!!!! dude this is getting really depressing...
I remember my Language Arts teacher in 7th grade asking our class if we would prefer to go to a school based on social-ness or somethin, or to go to a school based more on academic-ness....i dunno thats pretty much what it boils down to....and i took the road to a better academic school.....risking my friends in a way. I mean Strath Haven is a really good private school! But for reasons Baldwin is still better for me academically wise...but which is still better in the end? The academics or the friendships?
maybe i should just move and totally start over....I almost feel like i've murdered my life already.....its sooo disgruntled and disfigured and "the penguins are stealing my insanity" litterally. Ahhh but i am strong and i am reaching to put it on a certain shelf...which i can almost reach....i just need to be careful because its already fallen and/or i have invited it back into my life.
you know my mom was thinking of applying to Colby for the library director possision...it would probably be easy for her to get the job since she is an alumn, and is one of the best in her feild and is write now the director the director of the top liberal arts college in the country *thank you very much*
but i have really realized...that i can't run and i'm the one screwing this all up...and that i really don't want to go away...because i could never leave any of my friends becuase i really do love them sooo much....more than words can say. i mean, they do get on your nerves but in the end you can always forgive them because they'll always be there for you no matter what....and i hate losing friends.....its probably the thing that tears me up the most in this whole farking world. I do soo much for them...sacrifice myself for them sometimes it seems...make decisions because they'll benifit more from it then i would....
i mean i haven't had most relationships because i cared more about my friends.
i hate this
this is my pms rant so i really hope you enjoyed ^_^
I'm off to go cry on my bed listening to my music...
I don't want to be depressed or anything....i hope its not these stupid drugs....its just that not being able to see my friends is so frustrating because they're like most of my world to me and i don't know what the hell i would do w/ out them. So to all of you, you know who you are....this is an apology....or a vent....or a sad letter
I loath the world and all its cruelty T_T
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::09:15 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Sunday, January 5, 2003::
10:50 p.m.
poo i wanted to watch the rest of "the Faculty"!! IT HAD ELIJAH WOOD AND JOSH HARTNETT IN IT!!!! tehehe la it's the movie where everyone turns into ALIENS!!!! and i was at the max partand then my mommy came downstairs and made me turn it off ;-;
whooo WE HAVE SCHOOL 2MORROW!!!!
poo poo
Maria I KEEP FORGETTING UR CELL NUMBER!!!! ahhh!!! U called...and yea i didn't call u back but i'll c ya 2morrow! hahahaha
yea i had fun times hanging out w/ Steph today to work on our latin project! Haha i ate sooo much!! i was really hungry for some reason....
well i want to go off and finish my chapter in RETURN OF THE KING!!!! Yes! I FINALLY FINISHED TWO TOWERS!!!
aren't you proud of me?
^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:50 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Sunday, January 5, 2003::
01:09 a.m.
whoo totally forgot this!
So YPTW started today and i'mdoing ADVANCED SCENE STUDY!!!
*cheers*
but i don't know who else is ^_^ apparently AMC has 37 farking ppl in it!! and the majority are middle schoolers!!
wait..i thought AMC started @ grade 7???
anywhoo so i'm discussing the guys w/ Erica who are doing the advanced dance classes and she says that there are two new matts.
and one of them...
goes to upper darby
and has brown hair
OMG IT MIGHT BE THE FARKING TENOR FROM THE CONCERT!!! Because..there was a tenor who's name was matt and our tenor had brown hair....and we were acctually discussing how weird it would be if his name was matt becuase it seems to me that every boy is either named Matt, Alex or Mike >< THERE ARE WAY TO MANY FARKING MATTS IN THE WORLD!! AND ALEXS AND MIKES! whoo....yea...so i start freaking out chez Samar's....BECAUSE IT MIGHT FARKING BE HIM!!! and Corey said that he might know they guy and he said that they guy he thinks it is..that his name is matt! SO IT IS PROBABLY HIM!!!!!
yes Upper Darby High is huge....
BUT I WON'T LET THAT GET ME DOWN!
dude i sound mondo psychotic right about now...
can't blame me considering its 1:15!!! ^_^
"How wonderful life is...now you're in the world"
I heart moulin rouge w/ a passion ^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::01:09 a.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Sunday, January 5, 2003::
12:39 a.m.
whooo where has Zoë been???
away....
IT'S FARKING WINTER BREAK FOR FARKING SAKE!!!
whoo...sadly today is the last day!!
*tear*
ahh Cads left....we had such good times!!!
between "gatherings" and mucho, mondo, even "mungo" parties.....><
including leaving my bathing suit bottom @ Jimmy's...and i think my top is at hannah's.....><
and on thursday we went to NYC!! And saw 42nd Street on b-way!
AND WE GOT TO GO ICE SKATING AT ROCKEFELLER CENTER!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LUUUUUUURVE SKATING!!!!
XDDDDDDDD
I mean...when i lived in upstate NY i did it all the time!! And i was pretty decent! I mean when we were skatin on thurs. i even did a few turns ^_^ ahhh it was "hella fun"...whoooo
i need sleep....i haven't been to bed earlier than the hour of 1:30 i think this whole entire weeek!!!!
atleast i don't have any hw!!!
but i do have to go to steph's house to work on our latin project! whoo whoo.....
i also have to call her......><
well nites all! I MISS U TONS! Don't ask...
for some reason people never understand the fact that i might at one point be on vacation so they call a profusely (spl?) crazy amounts of times pissing off my sister..*cough* Rose *cough* and making my dad tease me for all my messages!!!
I can't help if i am loved!!! ^_^
OOOH YEA!!! So i went to KOP and big chrimbo sales!!!
I GOT A PAIR OF FARKING LUCKY JEANS FOR !!!!! HALF PRICE!!
They were originally but i'm sure you could have done the math ^_^ and i gots a perty cami thats like merlot coloured and perty sheer-ish green lurvely shirt both from A+F parceque ma tante, mon oncle et mes cousins gave me a hefty GC!!! and i got the jeans w/ a gc to KOP from my bat-mitzvah!!!
Question of the Day:
how come penguins like to fall of the shelves that they are put on?
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::12:39 a.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Monday, December 30, 2002::
10:31 p.m.
whoo i am just gonna put what i just put in my aim profile in here....
SKIING IS SOOO MUCH FUN! I wonder why....^_^ really....staying in the lodge isn't too bad when there is a *cough* nice view *cough cough* then again...when they crash into your sister/cousin and then you have a moment of HBEC (Hot Boy Eye Contact) we lost count of how many occursions (??) of this took place today. WHY CAN'T I FARKING LEARN HOW TO SNOWBOARD!?!? I really want! And after the little incident today w/ a fence.... yea.....*sigh* maybe next time we go skiing at camel back! WHICH BETTER BE SOON....really i should go learn snowboarding...or just ski again
WHooOOOO!!
so all in all.....WINTER SPORTS MOUNTAINS ARE GREAT PLACES TO SEE AND MEET HBs!!!!! XP
whoooo....yea the guy in red was pretty cute....hanging out downstairs at the lockers! ^_^ wow and waiting outside for Cady HAS NEVER BEEN SO MUCH FUN!!!
if you haven't already guessed the obvious,
*cough*
ZOE IS SOO FARKING BOY CRAZY!!!!
*cough cough*
it has been already determind that you need some help in the obvious department....
i am also very tired and having weird mood swings SO BEWARE
I'm GOING TO KOP 2MORROW!! *smiles*
I though someone died....but apparently i was wrong!
Again don't ask ><
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:31 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Sunday, December 29, 2002::
08:45 p.m.
lt: Cady is going to put in her something corporate cd...
wooo just got back from princeton! Now wasn't that fun...
I pretty much felt like shit most of the time though!
speaking of shite i have to go call steph...because i can't meet w/ her 2morrow! AHH
whooo back! and its now....9:30??
yea so went to princeton...felt like shite!!!
and now i am on the pill! yes the pill mes amigos
yea...and there was a really cute guy at winberries....^_^ but he was w/ a girl and wearing a hooters shirt....aaah but later as we were walking back to the parking garage I saw BFTR (boy from the restaurant) and he smiled at me!!! XDDDDD whooo and we had choco fonduuuu for dessert!!
NOW I AM TIRED AND GOING TO BED NITE NITE!!!!
WE ARE GOING SKIING AT CAMELBACK MOUNTAIN 2MORROW!!! WHOOOPEEEEE!
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::08:45 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Friday, December 27, 2002::
10:53 p.m.
HALLELUJIA!! (???)
whoo Chrimbo is over....CADS IS HERE!!!!
Cady: Hola!
whooo....fun times fun times!
nothin much here...we bought sobe Adrenenline Rush and B&J's half baked ice-cream! 'Cept my mutti said i couldn't drink the AR tonight :( save it till a party when we can make out w/ everyone!! XDDDD)
*cough*
now what was this about me trying on your boxers? *confused look*
that was a fun party! sortof....trampolines rox though!! I WANT A GIANT TRAMPOLINE!!! and an i pod! Sean has awoken my love for it once more!! Ever since i saw Paula's at camp...and turned it on and thought i broke it because IT DOESN'T SAY WHERE THE FARKING OFF BUTTON IS SO I LEFT IT ON
^^:::::::::::
whooo......my sugar is sky-rocketing or somethin...
well it works when u have a cousin who never falls asleep and sleeps in forever and ever....
Hey! Does anyone want to go to Java Joe's w/ us tommorow? Jennie what are u an Heather up to?? Cousins from out of town breakfast party and everyone else 2morrow morning at like.....11:30 AM?? tehehe
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::10:53 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Wednesday, December 25, 2002::
12:44 p.m.
HAPPY CHRIMBO TO ALL!!!!!
whooo wasn't last night fun??
m a famille et moi went to relatives Frank and Nina's house! And i was the only person there who was in the teens i think....
well there was that guy Christian....XP but i never found out how old he was....
and then my sister was the second oldest person coming in around 10 years....><
so i read..and i called Jennie on my spiffy new cell!!! It's soo cooool! i can just say her name and it will call her house!
yea so today is chrimbo christmas...IT SNOWED LAST NIGHT!! !then all the farking rain to it away!! boooo hoooo
YEA SO I FINALLY GOT THE RENT CD!!! And Kingdom Hearts!!!!! AND A LAVA LAMP!!! My dad swore he would never buy me a lava lamp an dhe did! It's still warming up though.....
Yurmy...i gots "sugared plums"!!!!!! XPPPPP
Well..... OFF TO READ TWO TOWERS!!!! ^_^
I WANT TO FIND OUT WHO SHE IS!
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::12:44 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Sunday, December 22, 2002::
12:07 a.m.
aaaaah IT IS SO FARKING COLD IN THIS ROOOM!
ok well i was gonna write an entry tonight...BUT I AM SOOOOO EXHAUSTED! LEMME GET SOME SLEEP! ><
all i have to say about tonight is....
scarring hannah's house
never had this much fun at choral/orchestral concert
never had this much fun in a church
never stalked a guy and followed a bus full of people before ^_^
erm....HAD SO MUCH MORE FUN THAN I EXPECTED??
it was soo much fun! Gosh and if anyone here who reads this knows anyone form Upper Darby in the Encore Special Singing group thingy...and they know a cute guy w/ Shaggy dark hair who i am positive sings tenor....^_^ tell them my e-mail adress or somethin and tell them to contact me RIGHT NOW! heheh
UPPER DARBY SCHOOL BUS NUMBER 96 FOREVER!
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::12:07 a.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Thursday, December 19, 2002::
11:26 p.m.
DON'T MIND THE APPEARANCE!!!
We are currently repairing this gorgey blog! ^_^
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:26 p.m.::
TODAY I
Danced the Night Away with Ziggy Stardust...^_^
...
::Thursday, December 19, 2002::
11:15 p.m.
whoooo just archived!!!
what do you think of the new look?
it might just be temporary....i dunno yet :)
ONLY A HALF A DAY TILL WINTER BREAK!! XDDDD
And I did this all in my hot pink underwear @ ::11:15 p.m.::
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